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Hi everyone! I need some suggestions. I graduated nursing back in 2011, i had my license 2012 since i took december 2011 nle. I didn't chose nursing from the very beginning, but I did what I can to finish the course because I don't want to waste my parents money and i don't like to be left behind by my batchmates (petty reason, i know).. Well i graduated with good enough grades, I passed the nle in just one take. Im a license holder now for 2 years but I haven't made any great steps in my nursing career. My first work was not in line with nursing which lasted for 5 months only, then I had an offer as a PDN, i took it and i just had my one year with my patient last month. I'm not really into PDN, i just took it because the offer is good, I only have to visit my patient 3x per week, accompany her in doctor's appoinments, and basic nursing duties; vital signs,cbg monitoring, giving medications and documentation. My patient is very independent, they just needed someone to monitor her and prepare the medications for her. I'm thinking that I stayed too long in my job. Now, I think I lost my knowledge in nursing all in all. Im uncomfortable in applying in a hospital because I have wasted my 2 years in nothing. Im feeling inferior now, I dont know if i can survive a nursing interview without shaming my self. I am thinking of applying for a job outside nursing because I needed the money, but i also don't want my 4 years in nursing go to waste. a friend of mine asked me to apply abroad and fake our coe because she know someone in saudi who also faked his coe and is now an icu nurse. But im feeling uncomfortable too? any suggestions?

[color=#ff00cc]hi.. my godmother asks me to prepare the requirements for application at mmc, she's half chinese. she knows someone there and insists on helping me. i don't have any choices to consider because i'm a newly graduate and newly passed rn. i have read all your comments here, and i'm kinda nervous. i don't have very good looks, and i don't know if my personality would be enough for them, and i'm no chinese - just looks like one. well, i'm just nervous about the interview and exams.. i'm a newbie. just sharing.. :j