Nursing-NS

Hello everyone, I created this thread because I do not have the courage to speak to any of my loved ones or counselors at my community college about my situation. I thank you in advance for those who take the time to read this. I am a 20 year old student currently taking my prerequisites at a community college in Southern California, living at home, and working part time. I am seeking help, here's my story: I graduated high-school in 2010 with aspiring dreams to obtain an Associates Degree in Registered Nursing at my local community college, transfer to a SDSU or UCI for my BSN, and further my education to achieve my ultimate goal as an FNP. The day after I graduated high-school, everything started going downhill unfortunately. My disgusting cheating ex-boyfriend of 7 years decided to end our relationship that summer. To top it off, problems at home with my parents started occurring. These two events took a deep toll on my self-esteem and urge of feeling "good enough" to succeed in anything. Depression would probably be the correct term to describe what I was going through. I did fairly well in high-school, took AP courses all throughout my 4 years there. Graduated with a decent 3.5, not too shabby. My college transcript on the other hand is mediocre though. I am completely embarrassed. My GPA is a 3.037. I currently have 5 W's (withdrawals) on my transcript, all spread out throughout 4 semesters. -Cultural Anthropology -Communications -General Biology Lecture -General Biology Lab -and finally Anatomy I am currently taking Anatomy for the 2nd time and will be receiving a "C-". I am also taking General, Organic, and Biological Chemistry and will be receiving an "A-", and I am also taking Spanish 202 and will be receiving an "A." I AM SICK OF LETTING DEPRESSION RUIN MY FUTURE. From now on I will be, excuse my language, BUSTING MY ASS OFF! My heart and soul is in nursing, I want to help those in need. Especially since my sister and I grew up as patients at Rady's Children Hospital. I've known since then that my heart belonged to nursing. But is it too late? This summer, I will be taking Cultural Anthropology, again, and Political Science. During Fall 2012 I'll be taking Physiology (Bio 220) and Sociology. Then Spring 2013 I will be taking Microbiology (Bio 230) and Communications, again. I am DETERMINED to receive nothing less than an A in my remaining courses. I am more than capable of doing so. With that being said, (if I've done the calculations correctly) will have an overall GPA of 3.4736 and a GPA of 3.3333 in my Science Prerequisites. *Keep in my mind I have no D's or F's on my transcript. After my last semester in Spring 2013, I will have completed my 60 transferrable units. I plan on taking the TEAS around late 2012-early 2013. I currently have an interview this month for an internship at a local hospital and will be doing as many clinical hours as possible to obtain experience and volunteer hours. What I need from you? THE BLUNT TRUTH! Do I honestly have a chance? I am willing to relocate wherever I can to be accepted to any RN/BSN program in the United States. I will even apply to LVN/LPN programs. In my opinion here in Southern California, if you do not currently hold a CNA license, have a stellar overall GPA, have a stellar science prerequisite GPA, a high score on the TEAS, have volunteer hours, and at the most 1-2 W's (withdrawals) or repetitions on your transcript then you have absolutely no chance. PLEASE HELP I NEED HOPE. None of my family members nor close friends know about this. I have been keeping my depression, let alone my failure in school, a secret for 2 years now. But I WANT AND NEED to progress with life in a positive manner. Your input would be greatly appreciated. And thank you again for taking the time to read this. :redbeathe