youshallbehealed

sorry about the title, i just wanted to catch your attention i have a problem I hope you could direct me to a solution this is very serious for me please don't take my words offensively for I'm gonna say it as direct as I coulld In the general population, I can be considered physically very beautiful. I appreciate the way I am made, the way I look in the mirror I work very hard above and beyond for my patients, I feel good that I can honestly say that I always give the best care as much as I can My problem is I have difficulty dealing with the young male doctors and there's a lot, because they stare at me, or throw me looks nothing offensive. But I get so conscious, I have never been comfortable with attention. I am a very quiet person too, I speak English but not as articulate as I write it. I guess how do I make myself and them comfortable so that it's a congenial but professional environment. I cant even smile at them, they are quiet too like intimidated or afraid to talk to me and stuff. Ive been observing these behaviors to see if I am imagining it, but I dont think I am. Do you think it's me? I really want to communicate the care I provide better so I can slep at night. thank you so much. I dont want to purposely make myself unkept..

I am one year on my full time job 3 12's. I recently got hired on an ideal part time job (they dont have FT) 2 8's in my dream unit in my dream hospital, sounds great right? I really am thankful the only thing that's holding me back is the scheduling since in both hospitals there is no fixed one. And I've a couple conflicts already, I've swapped and sorta talked to my old manager but I'm scared for the future I don't it to get to the point where I call in. I need both jobs there are a lot of expenses for everybody I care about I dont spend more than what is needed. For those of you who experienced this second job pains, how did you handle it? Does it get better? Should I resign with my full time and just get another part time? Or shoud I resign on the part time and just get per diem elsewhere then wait it out until my dream hospital has a FT position then I can resign to my old FT position too. Aahh I dont know I dotn want to resign. What would you do if you were in this situation