fayet

Congrats and keep the faith!

I understand your frustration but also feel that there are some holes in your story especially when it comes to your psychiatric disorder being disclosed to the board and elsewhere. I agree with much that has been said and will not duplicate that. I have been a recovering addict for 2 1/2 yrs but only have my daily reprive from picking up again. I pray each day that God takes the obsession away and He does. My daily walk with my Higher Power is what keeps me clean and sober. I went away for 3 months to an inpatient facility and then did 5 weeks of Outpatient Rehab. I make at least 2 AA/NA meetings a week and a Nurse Support Group a week. My sponsor and I have a close relationship in recovery and I seek her advice sometimes daily. I talk with other addicts/alcoholics and pray and meditate on my devotional reading and read recovery literature. I also work with my sponsor in assisting with others on their first three stepwork. God chose to give me an RN job in October of '10 after looking for work since that March. My job came in God's time and not my own. That was the hardest thing for me to accept next to the unmanageability of my life and that I was powerless over my disease. I am a true believer that God knows when we are ready to accept things in our recovery and in my case that was so true. I work in a rural hospital in a small town in TN working 12-hr night shift on a Med-Surg floor. I have been an RN for 37 years. The director who hired me looked inside of me and gave me a chance and she has been my biggest cheerleader beside my husband and sponsor. It definitely was a God moment for me. Hang in there. Have you tried dialysis clinics, same day surgery clinics and even immunization clinics? Will keep you in my prayers. Don't give up and take care of you first. Faye