animenurse

Let me give you some background on me; I am 20 and am in my sophomore year of college, just starting my nursing classes. I transferred to the college I am at now after my freshman year because of not getting into the nursing program at the university I was at. It was a bit devastating to me because I had a 3.9 GPA and never had a problem getting into schools before. This nursing school at the university was very small proportionally compared to the rest of the school and was told that a lack of professors caused it to be small. I guess I can attribute my denial to that, but it still hurt me a lot. I also lived in an all-freshman dorm and had trouble with, for lack of a better term, bullying at the beginning of the year. I am pretty sensitive and at the time I felt terrible. I already have a very low self-esteem and it was made even lower. As the time went on, though, I started to make friends and started to love my school. This made it really hard for me to leave because I had to pack up and leave a lot of my friends, and it made me feel very alone. But I felt that nursing was what I wanted to do because it combined my interest in the workings of the human body and my wanting to help people. I decided to transfer to a college that is known for nursing and got into the program. I had to take prereqs for a semester which I did well at. Now I am actually in two nursing classes along with other core courses. I felt like I was understanding all the information and would ask questions when I didn't. I took my first nursing exam yesterday (in Core Concepts and Skills) and I most definitely failed it. I knew the information, I really did. The way the questions were asked really through me off. I study about 3 hours every day for nursing and went into overdrive about two weeks ago for this exam. I also studied N-CLEX questions to prepare me and meet with by professors at office hours. I don't really know what else to do, I would like to see if any of you could give me advice. I feel like I might have test anxiety, which is weird because I never have problems with taking tests. I have a real complex with failure, especially after last year when I failed to get into nursing school. We have the policy that you have to get a 76% in the class to pass it and that we can only take one class over one time or we get the boot. I was told that this test was the easiest one, which really distresses me. I have a thought weighing heavily on my mind that I was never meant to be a nurse and that I made a mistake. I felt like as I have been learning the information that this might not be the field for me, and failing an exam kind of establishes that fact for me. I really am determined to be a nurse, but I feel like all these signs are trying to tell me that it isn't meant to be. I came into my freshman year as a psychology major before I switched to nursing and feel like I should go back to that, but that is something I could have just done at the university that I was at. I'm just a little messed up right now and feel that I made the wrong choice in what I am doing. I hope that some of you guys kind of know where I am coming from and can give me some advice. P.S. I'm real sorry how whinny this post is and its length. I am just panicking.

Are you just starting out? Because the I feel that same way too. I think it's a universal feeling...

Okay, so I'm a fresh new sophomore nursing student starting my first block. I believe PEDS is the way to go for me, but I want to hear from people who have experience in the area. What qualities are more needed in PEDS and more useful to have than other types of nursing?

I've always been interested in medicine and felt that this was the best way to incorporate that into my life's work while helping others. For a while I was thinking of becoming a psychologist, but I didn't feel like I would see it as fulfilling as nursing. I don't know, something just clicked I guess....