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Thank you both. I'm trying to quit being so hard, but there are times it just seems impossible to appease all of these standards we're supposed to live up to. Nrsang, the reason I feel that way is that I've been written up in the last 3 months for an error on blood transfusion paperwork, and now it seems I may be written up again soon for a dissatisfied patient who gave us a low satisfaction score. Granted, the blood write up was my first, and I'm usually so careful that it took me over a year to be written up for the first time. But I am starting to feel like maybe my caution (which leads me to be slow) is why others see me as mismanaging my time. And Lyndaa, your words are very true- I often find myself answering my co-workers call lights, helping PCAs, and setting pumps. Perhaps I should focus on that. Since writing that post, tonight will be my first night back. The dreaded meeting with my (really super awesome- I'm blessed to have her) manager is tomorrow after my shift to discuss the angry patient.

And I still feel totally incompetent. Is it normal to still feel like a complete idiot after almost a year and a half? I'm *trying*, although unsuccessfully, to give myself some credit for the fact that I work on an incredibly busy stressful floor, with a high turnover rate, and trying to keep in check the fact that I am very hard on myself. I have trouble forgiving myself for mistakes. But I'm having issues with the fact that it seems like nurses that have been a nurse for 5 months, or 10 months, or the same time as me, or blah blah, seem to be more together than I am. For some reason I feel like I'm on the fast track to getting fired or professionally disgraced. I'm trying to find a job on an easier unit, especially since it seems so easy for some of my coworkers to find new work. I've interviewed for 3 other positions, and have not gotten any offers. Feeling a bit like there is something wrong with me as an applicant. Tips? Or am I just kinda dumb? yikes!