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wow, thankyou all those who replied, i appreicaite your thoughts and time. Im sorry to all those who have lost a husband, parent, or child. It seems alot of us have had our own personal grief to deal with at some point or other in our careers. I think its true that my job makes it more difficult for me to move foward as im dealing with death and dying almost daily on some level. I was extremely close to my mother too. A change of pace might be good for me for a while, just to breathe and take some time for myself to heal. I am a spiritual person and believe i will see all my loved ones passed in heaven one day. My faith in god is what keeps me focused and motivated. Isnt it funny how i have never considered counselling.. A typical nurse i guess finds it easier to care for others.Food for thought, i will defenitely consider it now. I do believe nursing is still the best career for me. How refreshing it is to be able to share things with those who understand, thankyou lovely nurses, take care.:)

Hi everyone:). I guess i need to let something off my chest. First of all i will say i love nursing. Im an lpn studying for my degree at the moment. I work in Aged care and have done for 10 years. My problem is this. I lost my mother last year to lung cancer. I nursed her till the end, her illness was very quick, she passed just 6 months after diagnosis. Ever since she left i find it hard to care for elderly,and dying people. It seems to affect me more. I enjoy taking care of them, but also feel a bit depressed. I think about my mother every shift in some way. I wonder if i need to have a change to school nursing or something involving no death for a while? or would i still feel the same no matter what job i was in? I keep on telling myself to snap out of it and get on with my career as i love my job and have invested alot of time and energy into it. I have 2 children and a husband who adores me, i am very blessed. I dont feel i have depression, im a very happy person with a positive outlook on life. Mums been gone a year and a half now, i know you cant put a time limit on grief, but surely i should be feeling better by now? Thoughts anyone?