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I will start my practicum next week, which is really exciting considering the one-to-one learning experience before graduation! However, my school ask me to finish my learning contract paper before I go to the unit. I searched the location of the unit. It is a neuro ICU floor. Since I have not had an orientation with the unit, I have no idea about it. For example, I do not know what the mainly illnesses patients having there, and what kind of nursing care needs to be delivered either. Now I am stucked with Course Objective #3: Identify a researchable question drawn from clinical observations? I have not had any observation yet, how can I identify the problem on the unit? But it is mandatory that I have to turn it in before I start the course. So guys, Please help me, and give me some ideas!

Yes. I talked to my therapist last week. She gave me a lot of constructive suggestions, which make me feel much better about myself. I am 31 years old already but this is the first time I met the person who is so mean and insane. I worked before, and I usually could get along with other people including my boss well. Thinking of the people I get interacted everyday, good people more and bad guys less after all. Whenever I look at my kid's smiling, I just feel I am so blessed!

Thanks for giving me suggestions, guys! In the past several weeks, I was really in the darkness and even thought about suicide ------ you can imagine how much psychological distress has put on me! I wish I can see someone who is in charge of this nursing school now, however, I don't have time to do that because I have to move on to a new semester! I will talk to the leader of my nursing school later. The people who were with me in the same group observed the things our clinical instructor did to me, and they are willing to be my witness! Fortunately, I have my new clinical instructors now. After several day's interactions with them, I really like them: they are knowledgeable, professional, and have cultural sensitivity. Hope I will have good ones this time!

It would be wonderful if I could learn something from her. However, I didn't. All I got from her is self-worthless and life meaningless! She is new and never had clinical experience with students before, which is fine for me because we have to start at some point. But she always yells at me even she is wrong. For example, I prepared everything for an IV push before I went to my patient's last time. She yelled at me for I didn't bring a needle for it. I didn't understand that because I just needed to twist my syringe with the heplock on the patient's wrist. Why I need a needle? I asked her the reason for it, which just made her angry and blamed me for I didn't have basic knowledge for it. Then we went to the patient's room and I did the IV push without needles. It turned out that she was totally wrong. But that just makes her hate me more! The things I cannot stand most is that she makes dirty jokes with my patients in front of me, which makes me feel very uncomfortable. In the post conference, 95% of the time she talks about her family, kids, and even how to educate her kids for sexual activities, which is very unprofessional and we cannot share much clinical experiences with each other. All my peers complain about her everyday, and now all of them can realize that I am her biggest target everyday. To this point, I really appreciate the students in my group because they try to protect me and keep me away from her everyday. I am really stressed out now!

Could you tell me what I gonna do with my instructor who has a big discrimination on me (I am an Asian student)? She always picks on me and make me feel that I cannot do anything correctly! She treat me so different from American students. To whom, she always is patient with big smiling. I have been had three clinical instructors before her, and everyone gave me an "A" for clinical evaluation, and they made very good comments about my performance on the clinical sites. This time is so different, my current instructor just drives me crazy!