biledrinker

well i have not personally "worked" as a salaried employee in a hospital, but only as a nursing student. i hate to say this but during the times i worked there (taking care of patients), i have not encountered a toxic patient, or a patient who disobeyed me, or was mean to me. the nurses who worked there were hostile, its like i could not approach them without fear in my heart, even if i ask nicely, its really rare to see a nurse who smiles and stuff. maybe out of 10 theres 2 who smiles and i can approach without being paranoid. some doctors looked mean but they at least dont say anything. nursing is my second course, my first is in the computer industry, being a male dominated field, there were 2-3 girls in class and i was the only female in a class of 15 in one subject. i never encountered hostilities or fears. everyone seemed to be in one mood, either neutral or happy/whatever. i went into pre-med for one semester and i had to drop out because i failed one subject, but i was doing really well beyond my expectations ..not to brag or anything i really dont think im the sharpest tool in the shed. so i did nursing and all was nice until i stepped in the hospital, being of INFP personality i find it pretty easy, i never understood what the F is a "toxic patient". everyone seemed to one up each other, i think it "defeats the purpose" of being a nurse.i eventually graduated tho (albeit it was painful). i dont think i had good experience with my peers. i had a good experience w/ patients, the elderly i took care of and spent time with, i still think of them and its been 2 years. i remember one of my first patients..a guy who had a risk for cardiomegaly.. i had a big incident report too, that erupted into one big scandal ..guess what..i wrote on the wrong sheets. the sheets were basically the same color . instead of writing on the nursing notes i wrote on the doctors notes. the doc's note is supposed to be blue in color not gray. they scared me to death and i had to write a full page essay that i was aware of what i did and i was sorry about it. all my life i never made a mistake in dosage of medicines or anything, i always double check things. just those darn notes. they lowered my grade for it too, to a near-failing grade. one of the worst experience that i vividly remember like it was yesterday: being insulted in front of a patient cause i didnt know how to properly look at the dextrose, how much was left, consumed, i was new to it obviously..i wish they would just patiently teach me ONE OR 2X and i will understand it. i really dont think insulting someone in front of a patient is good because the patient will think im an idiot so why should i be taking care of him/her? second was being insulted and yelled at in front of my peers and other nurses because of a mistake again that couldve been resolved in a private discussion. i really cannot forget that event in my life, honestly dont think anyone should be treated like that. i assume most of the nurses get into the field cause of the money, obviously, but in my heart i believe one shouldnt be doing if they hate it. if you hate your job, do something else.