Nurses, nurses and nurses, I tried to hire a nurse in recovery w/ narcotic restriction and I was told that they would hire her but if anything went wrong, and they meant anything, I would "be termed" from my job as well and they put that in writing. Oh, big part of this I supervise/manage all the medical in a substance use treatment center. Now, that is oxymoron!!!! Needless to say, I felt sick really sick to my stomach, I work in a treatment center I could not offer support to another recovery nurse. That was just another time where other talk out of both sides of there &^%^%&*(&*( mouth. So, here's another question. How can some of the recovery community be about changing the negative stigma if they do not practice what they preach? I kinda feel the same way as RN3264, heavy heart . This is where my hope pops in and takes over and never give up. To Dirtyhippiegirl, Thanks for responding and my story is no different than anyone else. Tried a drug, felt normal, got caught, now have the privilege of 3 mental health DX, nicotine dependency, cocaine and ADHD, survivor of severe domestic abuse, did time with a regulatory board, narcotic restriction, peed in cup and the lab got a cheap peep show (not really, the lab was fantastic) used all my retirement funds, everything was repo'd car ,house, etc. almost homeless, student loan defaulted, fed my dog before me then i learned about food banks and charity care, lost grandpa to a drunk driver, brother died 3 years later and had to ask for help to have him cremated. reinstated, worked in substance use treatment centers, suspended license due to paper work error, i take partial ownership. lost apartment and moved in with mother. moved to another state due money or lack of money, (sister moved us). Licensed unrestricted in that state, voluntarily entered into there state program and successfully completed. have had 2 jobs in 5 years both in management of treatment centers, got a loan for a car still reside with mother, never relapsed or returned to use of cocaine, the "i will take your healthy attitude monster" died because HOPE was stronger and some am I. I feel the pain of others when they are numb with the hope they will feel again and work through the numbness and grief process. My story is no different, we are nurses and are strong and continue to get stronger even 15 years later. Although, i continue to hide my recovery (my secret life) because of the negative thoughts some health care professionals still have with substance use drivers. I work on shame and guilt even today. This was theraputic, thanks dirtyhippiegirl Here the guts of the question, I was a traveling nurse before any issues and held 7RN licenses. Now, one by one each state I have held a license in, though the licenses are not active, nor were they active when I was first diciplined nor am I seeking to reinstate, the BON's want some sort of hearing or discipline or both or MONEY. So when does it end, from me not soon enough. There has got to be some sort of hidden law that forbids nurses from repeatedly being reprimanded for the SAME issues that have been resolved and remain resolved. Where is that law? Thanks to all of you for remaining on this site to give others hope and respect. Your the best on the upside