ceebee530

Hello all, I need some advice. Its my first year in nursing school and Im thinking I may have made a mistake. I really enjoyed all my prereq classes (a&p, micro, psych ect) and the beginning of the semester was a whirlwind of information. I first started to get concerned when we hit lecture on nursing process and roles of the nurse. I guess I didn't fully understand that a nurse had her own system different from doctors. I am much more interested in the scientific portions- what their disease/illness is, how it affects the body system, what can be done to treat it ect- the study of pathology basically. I'm not very much a fan of this nursing process/patient education. Im not a teacher, never have been able to teach/train anyone in my working past. I was hoping that once clinical started that Id be able to see that side of things but my first day was awful! I despised every minute of it, and I know nursing students basically get the crap end of the stick- helping pts to the bathroom and cleaning up after them, but I realized that I don't have the best bedside manner, Im actually pretty awkward and really bad at small conversation and questioning. I was just very uncomfortable with the whole experience. The nurse we were assigned to was barely around and only saw our patient maybe 3 or 4 times the 6 hours that we were there and i know she probably had 5 or 6 more patients but I found myself wondering what she was doing the entire time she wasn't with them? Im learning that Im much more interested in like the scientific/clinical aspect- testing the patient and figuring out whats wrong with them or any anomalies and stuff like that, the medical stuff. I really don't know what to do from here. I don't wanna waste time and money to just 'get through' nursing school to find out that they don't have a branch that pertains to what I like- minimal patient contact and disease processes. Any and all input would be greatly appreciated!!