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Thank you three for the replies and viewpoints The biggest thing for me now is I never really had a reason to go into nursing. All I saw was healthcare and job security. Took a clinical round to make me realize that without really wanting to do something like this, it would be a miserable profession. Honestly just feel terrible for taking this long to realize that. I talked to the dean today and she told me that without getting any satisfaction from what I am doing it really is not worth doing.

Hi everyone, first post....been a lurker for awhile. Let me give you a little background. I am currently a junior in a BSN nursing program (first clinicals this semester). I entered college as a pre-pharm student, but ended up switching majors halfway through my freshman year. Up to this point I have had zero issues, the classroom stuff comes to me rather easily. I got into the program without breaking much of a sweat. I fell into nursing more than I fell in love with it. That seems to have changed once we stepped into the clinical setting. We just finished our first round on a med/surge floor, which is fairly typical from my understanding. The first five or so weeks I just kept my head down and told myself to just get through it, and it apparently showed to my instructor even though I was really trying. During the end of the semester our instructor mentioned to me during our private evaluations that something just seemed to be missing. She wasn't sure if I was just showing up prepared or what it could have been. She said I am professional and connect exceptionally well with the patients, but that I just wasn't doing what one would expect from a nurse. Truth is, I am not enjoying anything we are doing....in the least bit. I love talking with the patients and trying to help them, but the nursing care model doesn't fit what I want to do. I've taken this to the point where I have a meeting with the dean of the school tomorrow to consider dropping out. I know after one clinical that is a hard call to make, but it just seems as if the field does not offer what I want out of it. I've always liked bones and muscles and the mechanical side of the human body, and am thinking about going for a physical therapy degree. My question to everyone here is, am I making the right move? I would still have another 3 semesters of nursing school to graduate, but I just REALLY feel like a duck out of water trying to do floor nursing. I've been told that is the core and foundation of nursing, and seeing as I'm just not jelling with it....would another field be a good direction to head in? My family has always told me they could never see me being a nurse, and seeing as I am 22 and in what should have been my senior year in college....they are a little less than enthused with my current disposition. Sorry if it is long. I just feel like the world is spinning and I am stuck between a rock and a really hard place. I know in the end it will be my decision to make....I could really just use some input on the matter.