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I really appreciate all of the feedback on this. This is really the first time I've gone in depth about this. I think its more of a social phobia. I can remember always being shy but somewhere along the way its gotten out of control. I have a 1 year old now and its so funny how sociable he is. I just want to be normal. I have made a doctor's appointment for tomorrow and hopefully I will get more insight.

I have talked with a doc before and was prescribed paxil. I quit taking it because I got tired of feeling like a zombie. I've never had an anxiety attack. Whenever I start getting the rapid heart beat, I know to leave. I'm just gonna try and so the bear I can.

I was so excited to be finally going to college and starting a career at res care. I started taking the mod classes last week for res care and was doing fine, until I found out I would have to do cpr and first aid. What's wrong with that? Nothing. If you're not anxiety ridden like me. So what happened? I was so freaked out and ended up leaving. I never spoke to my home supervisor so they probably think I quit. It would have been so great to have this experience for my nursing application not to mention the fact I really liked my clients. Then today my financial aid finally came in and there were so many people I just went home. I want more than anything to be a nurse but I think I just need wise up. I'm gonna stick with my pre requisites cause I need them no matter what and maybe go into computer science. Is there anyone else who suffers from social anxiety??

So far my classes are: chemistry, math, computer, and composition. I'll have a part-time job to deal with too.

Yes, I'm also afraid of not getting into the actual program. I didn't realize everything was so competitive!

I'm starting Bluefield state.this fall for pre nursing. I'm only.scheduled for four classes. I was thinking of adding at least two more. I have a 1 yr. Old and I'm currently doing mod classes to start work at.res care. Anyone have any advice? I know this is going to be a huge task and I'm not sure I'm ready or that I'll even succeed. I just want better for my child and I want have.a.career that is rewarding.