thank you all for being honest and straight to the point with me. its hard to accept something like this,... i will tell you all honestly i failed because i had a full time job and at the time couldnt afford not to work. part time wasnt an option at this job for me. i would always run off to work after class instead of home or to the library to study. i never had the time to speak to a teacher honestly. but i was doing good in all my classes including my ob. it was that final that i had to take at the end of the term (hesi) that i had done horribly at. i think i just had so much pressure with working till 8pm and i couldnt take off (horrible job). i had bought the books that were required but i was struggling with money so i didnt go ahead and by the reccommended study guides. i mean this is my fault for not letting my self struggle a little but win in the end,.. i guess its like throwing a quater up in the air and getting tails in the end when i realy needed heads. but my position has recently changed, i am able to quit my job in order to study full time. i actually am planning on giving it one more shot and going back to the school again. by the way hygiene queen when i first went to the dean of nursing i did tell her these are my mistakes and these are my actions- she wouldnt even hear it because as i wrote in my first post i wasnt there too long, she kept cutting me off. i guess i can understand her to but whatever... third times the charm! and i already have a plan b in action i have applied to adelphi although i wont have any nursing credits i dont mind starting over with the nursing classes. i believe it will give me more practice, no education is a waste of time.