Hi, i'm 20 years old male nurse student from Croatia. As i know, there in USA you become nurse at college. Here is different, we have nursing high school too, so i got my nurse diploma at age of 18, so i saw dead bodes before. my first "real" experience with death was at age of 15 during summer nursing practices which we had to do for two weeks after school year's end. So at the age of 15 i found patient dead and together with other nurse i done post mortal care and all that stuff, and just like you, my emotions were separated from me. i didn't feel sad, did't feel wierd, actually i didn't feel anything, especially not like vomiting since i really have stomach for all tat hospital stuff. So i think you really shouldn't "feel" anything, under that i mean that you shouldn't panic or expressing so obvious feeling like crying or going panic and especially not vomiting and such stuff. It's great thing that you didn't go dramatizing because of few reasons: 1.we do emotional sensitive job, but it still requires some professional aproach in all those hard times like death, especially when you see someone young and beautiful dying so early 2.i think it's also mather of respect for those people, because noone really deserved to get drama around their dead body when they die. it's serious job and it requires from you to act in same way and show respect for dead 3.when you see what we live through every day you are aware that there is no so many people who could that job, and you can be sure that you are one of those people who really can do this job. i know lot of people who started and ended nursing school and never worked again after that, because they realised they can't handle with such job So bravo to you and keep going like that, in my opinion noone really wants nurses with such strong expresing of emotions around. It's nothing strange to act "cold" in such situations, actually i think it's best way to do it. sorry for my bad english and cheers :)