I know how you feel. I just graduated last week, but I am not too happy with myself!! I was always a user of testbanks. I even used test banks on the HESI and NCLEX. I told myself that I just wanted to get it over with. Howeevr, I am very successful in what I do today. Because of those resources, I was still able to adapt to any clinical setting faster than my peers did. If I were you, I would just stay strong...and look into getting some testbanks for yourself as well. I would also learn how to manage your emaotions...cheers and good luck!