trainee

Uh remind me why I decided to put myself through this hell again!? To do 5 years worth of work crammed into 4, with all the competitiveness, the student loans, and the constant running around like a chicken with its head cut off. The instructors all told us when my cohort started our first semester of junior year that we would all ask ourselves at some point what we had gone and gotten ourselves into... but you know, knowing that doesn't make it feel any better. There's so much at stake (financially and otherwise) that I'm constantly in fear of failing. The irony is that I am well from failing. I'm actually doing quite well, but by comparison to my classmates, some of the best students around (my school is not east to get into,) I feel completely inept. How do I keep it in perspective? I feel as though I can never have a victory, because there's always some other project waiting for me that I have to scramble to complete. I am unable to meet my own expectations for myself because there isn't enough time in the day... Where to start? It's so overwhelming I find myself wasting time doing things like... posting in nursing forums. Does anyone feel like they're barely treading water here?