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:heartbeat*BIG HUGS* first of all.....I AM SOOO IN YOUR BOAT! lol! i have already written a post about how hard it is to keep everything organized and in your brain...or ON your brain sheet. ugh. I feel totally the same. my floor is super busy super unpredictable and when i get slammed with an admit i swear i go blank! remembering what to do with the stack of admission paperwork ON TOP of settling in you pt.! how do the expereinced nurses do it! LOL!

Sorry, more vents from a struggling new grad. I like my floor, i like my co-workers, but i HATE my super negative, unpleasable preceptor. she gives me insane anxiety. my confidence level is in the negatives and i want to quit everyday! i worked super hard to get here and i wont let ONE person ruin it, but GEEZ! i leave work everyday feeling like a total failure. she picks apart EVERYTHING!!!!! she's very white glove yanno...i welcome the correction, but im getting weary from all the bad and i leave feeling "well, dang....did i do ANYTHING right today." i cry in my car, on the way home and usually on my way to work. i know im new, and things are suppose to be hard....but im already running around trying to stay on top of everything PLUS stay ahead of my hawk eyes preceptor. im not whining, i appreciate someone pointing out everything...and i mean EVERYTHING....but my confidence is dwindling....

Hi! i posted in a different thread, but i think this one is more fitting. Quickly, Im a new grad just starting on a crazy step down ICU unit. everyone is on tele, so it's sort of just a tele med/surg..anyways, i am ending my 5th out of 6 weeks of orientation. I just need some advicec, because im tired of crying everyday after my shift! My preceptor is horrid! she rushes me and truly expects me to be as knowlegable and as fast as her! she has this white glove way of catching ALLL of my paperwork mistakes. As a matter of fact she just told me that she doesnt feel im ready to be on my own because i miss so many "little things". i was devastated! im safe, but im not ready because im not good at crossing all my Ts and dotting all my Is? she says she thinks "ill drown" when on my own because i take so long to do an admission and all my charting isnt immaculate. i understand the importance of thorough charting, and the paperwork bring filled out properly at all times, but is this enough to warrent a "you're just not ready." mind you after that comment, she dropped me from 4 pts to 2...and i have one week left to go! im confused, embarrassed..because she picks at all the "little things", but i feel i do a good job and work super hard. i spend the majority of my shift trying to check and double check and triple check everything and she STILL can find something to point out as a mistake! UGH! i seriously almost quit the other day, because i rarely get any positive feedback....just all my screwups....is she right? am i really going to drown? im sooo sick to my stomach, because all i do is stress HARDER when i have to go to work and try so hard to do everything correctly only to fail at the end of my shift...

Hey! I'm new to this site, but have been reading it for a few years now. So, I just landed my fisrt job in a step down ICU. I worked for a LTC home for a few months after i got my license (i needed a job, and no one was hiring) so even though i have had my license for about a year i consider myself a new grad. I was just wondering....DOES IT REAAALLLY GET BETTER?! i have only been on orientation for a week er so and although everyone has been suuuper nice, i cant help but beat myself up over everything (every little thing) that i forgot, or miss or cant do. i am not the best at drawing blood (we have to do it ourselves on weekends) and suck evem more at IVs, i miss more than i hit. and everytime i feel so incompeteant. everyone says it will get better in time. DOES IT? being a new grad or being just new is hard. i like the job, i just hate fumbling through report, trying to find everything, the paperwork, the blood draws i keep missing......truly, does it all come together?...eventually?