Jaymel

Thank you, I needed that! (feeble(Hug)feeble)

your comments are appreciated. i became ill with severe weakness, ataxia and dramatic change in my vision at easter, all are increasingly worsening. there have been difficulties getting a diagnosis and of course having an enquiring 'nurse' mind has not afforded me much calm. i have to add the gp's, practice nurse and health visitor have been most supportive in what has been a really difficult situation (all their children are at school with my own so i 'know' them to a degree and its been difficult to be honest about my anxiety..) the only treatment they have been able to give to try and help (which it has marginally) are steroids. (thought it might be myasthenia etc) after a 5 week wait for an urgent mri it has been found that i have 'something yet to be determined' at the top of my spinal cord/base of skull compressing the cord and infact causing subsequent degeneration of it. being a midwife (retired to raise children presently) tis' the other end i am used to dealing with and i am quietly frantic about the possibilty of quadraplegia to say the least.. i am known to be a very able bodied and dynamic person, ever cheerful and the supporter not the one seeking support - i have found it difficult to cope with the emotional turmoil all this has broguht down on me. i know the care will be excellent but do find it difficult to vent my fears and anxieties given my 'nursing background.

I wonder how many nurses find themselves seriuosly ill and in the care of nursing and medical staff? I have recently found myself in this situation and am having trouble coping. Any thoughts from others out there?