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Thanks for the replies. It is difficult to explain why I feel the way I do. I feel I am too young to be without a mom. I did not get to see her very often but when I did we had a good visit. She was alot of fun. She had a wonderful British sense of humor and she was very cute. So looking at all that I figure this really sucks to put it mildly. It feels unfair for me and her. I have thought of the counselling route. I did not think of the employee assistance program which is a great idea. As for work itself, the residents where I work are wonderful, the environment is full of turmoil due to a very poor administration. I wonder then if I'm doing my mind any favors by taking on all this added stress from work.

Thanks for the replies. It is difficult to explain why I feel the way I do. I feel I am too young to be without a mom. I did not get to see her very often but when I did we had a good visit. She was alot of fun. She had a wonderful British sense of humor and she was very cute. So looking at all that I figure this really sucks to put it mildly. It feels unfair for me and her. I have thought of the counselling route. I did not think of the employee assistance program which is a great idea. As for work itself, the residents where I work are wonderful, the environment is full of turmoil due to a very poor administration. I wonder then if I'm doing my mind any favors by taking on all this added stress from work.

I have had 1 month off since my mother died. Financially I need to think of returning. I tried a couple of shifts back and I felt incapable as it was, then an older man died. My mind went blank and I just couldn't think of what to do. When I'm at home my focus is on my mom and wishing that I could just go for a holiday or do something fun. I really couldn't care less about work right now but know I need to. I know grieving will take a while. I feel empty. I am somewhat frightened that my brain will not pull through for me if I really need it to. I'm tired of people saying you need to just go back to work, you'll feel better. These people aren't RN's and fail to understand the need for a focused mind on the job. Is there anybody out there who can relate and share some insight on how I should proceed. Thanks alot.

I have had 1 month off since my mother died. Financially I need to think of returning. I tried a couple of shifts back and I felt incapable as it was, then an older man died. My mind went blank and I just couldn't think of what to do. When I'm at home my focus is on my mom and wishing that I could just go for a holiday or do something fun. I really couldn't care less about work right now but know I need to. I know grieving will take a while. I feel empty. I am somewhat frightened that my brain will not pull through for me if I really need it to. I'm tired of people saying you need to just go back to work, you'll feel better. These people aren't RN's and fail to understand the need for a focused mind on the job. Is there anybody out there who can relate and share some insight on how I should proceed. Thanks alot.