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Wow! I can't believe they did that!

******UPDATE****** I wanted to let all of the very supportive people who left comments of this thread know what is going on. I have been offered a position at a hospital close to home and have given notice. More racist comments have been made in the span of time in between writing this post. I've addressed some but I'm tired guys. I can't sit and wait around and educate every single ignorant bigot I meet. The new hospital will be a better experience and I will make the best of it. Once again, to all the folks that left me encouragement and hope, a BIG THANK YOU!

Kidzcare, Thank you for these links. I am just soaking in all this information. So sad.

Thansk for your reply Jay! You are right racism is here and I am aware of the subtleties but have never had them stop my work or livelihood. This is the only time in my life that it's been this blatant and never have I felt like I had to RUN.

Thanks for your replies. You are right about filing a complaint and a possible law suit if this sort of thing persists. I do want out as this is deterring my learning and growth.

I'm sorry that you had to go through that. Hate is not cool! Ugh! Thanks for your reply!

I'm In the NE. It's crazy but soon will have less of this to deal with.

Thanks for your reply! Every day before going in I do affirmations and prayer. There is one other person of color but it's hard to speak about stuff at work. But it's a good idea to try to reach out to them. One RN I met but she quit because of the same things I'm talking about but she had it way worse than I. Different floor and everything. I think of myself as a very positive person who always lends a hand and try to bring light to the dark. Always trying to be generous with time and words of encouragement. Most of my colleagues appreciate it. Some I have learned to stay away from because they exude negativity and say off the cuff racist and sexist remarks which I can't deal with.

I'm sorry that your husband is going through that hate as well. That is so scary! It is true that fear can be quite debilitating. I try to focus on helping my pts but some days it's like a ton of bricks. I surely am getting out! I don't believe that this early exit will be detrimental to my resume. I know it will be just fine. I will give a notice and be professional but leaving is imminent. I wish you and your husband good luck because it can't be easy watching this happen to him. Stay strong!!!

I think for a while I thought it was me making too much of the situation. But, I see now that it's not right. I just can't do this. Safety and mental health have to come first! Thanks for replying!

Thanks for your reply! I think that it's going to be alright! I've been feeling lots better about leaving. Already receiving calls back! This is pretty amazing! Waiting a year seems like an impossible feat.

Oh my goodness! Your words are inspiring! The resilience! I could not imagine what you have been through! God bless! Thank you for your reply!

Thank you for your reply. I can imagine that discrimination from other POC can be just as bad as from others. Wow. I'm learning lots but it still is something that is sad.

Thank you so much! I love how this site has some of the kindest folks! I truly appreciate it! I hear you on small town cesspools! LOL! For now, sending my resume every which way I can! Would love to stay in the NY area (closer to the city). My wife would not fair well away from her home. I do think that this experience is building a stronger character and awareness in me. I have to spin this for the better any way that I can. Thanks for the offer though! It means a ton!!!!

Thanks! That was a great site and in the future I will in general need to address the comments and issues in a professional manner. But, I can't stay in this town!

Thats amazing!!! There is definitely a shortage in Arkansas. I'm goign to take my chances with NY and pray that I get anything closer to home.

Ever since Ive opened up about this issue, I started to apply for positions closer to home. Tonight I received a call back! I am in shock and disbelief! God delivers every time! I pray I get this job! How did you explain the 6 months experience? Did you go in detail about why you left?

Thank you so much for your reply! I am seriously considering counseling very soon because I do find that the fear takes over when I try to sleep. It's amazing the support that I have received thus far from ALL of you guys on allnurses! I truly do feel better.

Thanks for your reply. When these comments have been made, they were always in a tone that could be perceived as 'jokingly' or too quick that my response was always an expression of disbelief and the moment passes and conversation or interruption faded it into the background. One time I even laughed because I didn't know what to say. I have always had a problem with letting people know when I am hurt or offended. I just brush it off. But it's not ok.

Thanks for your reply. I'm actually a man, but I hear where you are coming from. As a man , I find that people will try to test me, especially as a male nurse. I am very mild mannered and ignore many many things. My exit plan is underway. Thankfully have already even received a call back for an interview! I can not wait to leave!

Thanks for your reply. I will most definitely be moving from this town.

Thanks for your reply! I have actually thought of getting something for anxiety. I try to shy away from prescription medications. But you are right it can totally help. I have times where I am so depressed feeling ashamed but just talking about it has alleviated some of that shame. but the fear persists.

Thanks so much! Not sure what my wife would think of Texas. She is a real New Yorker. I appreciate the offer though!!

Thanks for your reply. I don't think it may be intent per se, but if someone needs to whisper the word 'black' to say something rude or distasteful, chances are the individuals know that what they are saying is not right. On all instances which were more than just a couple,my preceptor whispered these statements so that only the few people she was talking to could hear. SO, yes, intentionally she knew that what she was saying was wrong.

I'm so sorry that your son and your family had to go through that. I am sure that that experience has sadly changed your son's life. The moment you realize that you live in our society. Sad. Thanks for the reply!!!