carene

I had a similiar experience in a different department. The preceptor was the Manager's sister-in-law and they were very good friends. My preceptor was, I guess, a good nurse, but a lousy trainer. After every shift I went home and cried because all she did was criticize; I NEVER did anything right. I didn't want to complain at my weekly evals, obviously - manager's friend and sis-in-law, but when I lost it and cried it came out. I refused to put anything in writing or repeat my statements, but she got transferred and my manager was never nice to me again. After I had been on this floor (Tele) for about 6 months, during which my Manager refused to send me to EKG training or ACLS training, I was in an auto accident which damaged my neck and back and I had to take medical leave for treatment. When I was permitted to return to work I hoped I would be assigned to another floor, but no, I had to go back to having a preceptor which was ok with me. Too bad they only gave me that for one week, then I went back to night shift (which I like btw). But they kept giving me more and more patients who much sicker than usual. One night I had 2 discharges, 4 admissions and 2 of them were transfers from ICU and Step Down. I was so naive; amazing considering my experience in owning my own business for 10+ years. Somehow I expected better from Nursing. I was also in a 2nd degree Accelerated Program. I worked in Politics for 10 yrs prior to owning a business, and the backstabbing and lying and manipulation in the field of Nursing can definitely give politicians a run for their money. Don't get me wrong, some of the finest professionals I've ever met were Nurses. It's a shame that some nurses do their best to drive new nurses out of the profession. I was told by my attorney I had an excellent case for inappropriate dismissal but I didn't want to go through the nightmare of a lawsuit. I hope things work out for you. I've continued nursing, but only part time private duty, and feel I really need more experience in a hospital setting to be excellent. But I know now that's not likely to happen. I'm in debt up to my neck due to getting this BSN, and mostly wish I hadn't done it. The saddest thing to me is, I really loved what I was doing, and wanted very much to dedicate myself to this new career.