I know I wrote this question a few weeks ago but now I have decided to have the baby with the help of my boyfriend, of three years. We have the support of our families and although we are very scared of this new journey that niether one has done before, we are excited and happy. At first because of my age and our financial situation, I thought I should have an abortion because it would be the "easy" way out of the situation......after thinking about it and having some nightmares I prayed to God to let me know in some way if abortion would be the right thing for me to do. That very same night I had a dream that when I went to sleep I put my hand on my stomach and I could feel the baby's heart beating. I felt a huge sense of relief and comfort in this and I feel that for me it was God's answer to my prayer. The next day I told my boyfriend that I was not having an abortion and that if he didn't want to have the baby then I would give it up for adoption; I would rather do that then destroy what was growing inside of me. I do not have anything against anyone who has ever had an abortion but for me I was torn just thinking about doing it and all the guilt was overwhelming. I was an emotional wreck inside. My boyfriend said he wanted to keep the baby and now we have decided that it will be a difficult journey but the most rewarding one we will ever have and nothing in life is easy. I believe the things that take the most work are the most enjoyable and rewarding in the long run. I know in my heart I will have so much love for this child and I would never regret it being born. Once again thankyou to everyone for all your kind words and prayers......it was amazing to have people reach out to me that I don't even know....thanks to all those that PM'd me and there were so many that I didn't reply to but let me tell you your courage and stories mean a lot to me. I will never forget the kindness found in this forum. THANK-YOU!!!!!!