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  1. LCinTraining

    Night shift

    I've never heard of a dawn stimulator. And when I'm that tired, I don't want to open my thermal curtains. I know my Vit D levels are dangerously low. It's part of keping vampire hours. I slept until about 4 today off and on. I know I'm going to have a hard time sleeping tonight. I think I may try to clean a bit (my house is a disaster due to my exhaustion levels) then take some melatonin in hopes it resets my circadian rythm.
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    I didn't see the light on???

    On night shift scripting has actually INCREASED our ringing. And there is always those patients who will think of things just to keep you there because they are lonely. I normally like to pride myself on making my patients feel like they are my only patient. I've received many commendations for it. However, I have a few that need to be told "I do not mind helping you, but I cannot even get to the next bell ringing before you are calling me back in here." This is after toileting, fresh wate and soda, a snack, applying Chapstick, changing socks, listening to them cry and turning them three times because each new position was uncomfortable. I give them a time frame I will return but less than two minutes later they call again. Sometimes I don't even make it two doors down before they call again. Thankfully, it is not every patient, but scripting will not help these patients.
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    Night shift

    Adding, we work 12.5 hour shifts with 3 shifts being considered full time. I have to maintain the kids insurance as per child support court order. Going part time is not an option.
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    Night shift

    Hi all, Haven't posted in a while. Background, came down with mono last year had to drop a semester. Husband left in middle of all of this and I pushed to get back into school the following semester, however son has a mood disorder and was kicked out of day care. Husband pays child support but refuses to help with child care. I was officially out of money and had to drop again due to child care. My program has a 2 drops and you're out policy, so I am in the process of looking for another program as soon as I pay off the supplies I purchased from the bookstore (which would have been paid for with financial aide that does not come now). Seriously considering the PA program getting started here next year when son is in school full time, as I already have an undergrad and only need orgo and stats to do in. Anyway...I work as an aide currently and do night shift. It enables me to be home during the week when they are with me and on weekends they go to their dad's. However, It is killing me. I feel like I have chronic fatigue many days. I cannot pull myself out of bed to do anything other than shoo them to the bus and make the requisite lunches. (Once I actually slept through the bus for my son at 12:30 and had to send a note saying he was sick). Then when I finally feel rested it is evening, and I am unable to sleep all night. I know there is medication for shift workers. However when going to the doctor to talk about it, I was simply told "You have an option to work night shift. Stopping nights is the only thing that will work." Excuse me crazy doctor lady who's job is not open 24/7 and who gets a 6 digit salary to my barely 2 digit salary...no. I don't. Working days would necessitate child care, and I can say goodbye to furthering my education. There's no way to work during the day as all the local programs are during daytime hours. There's also that problem of childcare and no money to pay for someone who can deal with my son. Right now, I cannot work days. It's just not possible. So, what do I do? I feel useless as a mother. I have a lot of guilt for not spending time with them due to my intense exhaustion levels. And my current doctor won't take me serious. If I still lived where I lived when I had mono I would go back to that doctor, but I don't, and he's out on extended medical leave so driving the hour plus is not worth it. I followed his instructions as best as I could with a missing spouse and three kids with influenza (yes we were all vaccinated that year to no avail) and stayed in bed as much as possible. I've felt pretty good for a while, except this sleep thing. Any suggestions?
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    Do I have any options?

    I have tried pretty much all that has been suggested. Even still, this semester is finished for me, as I cannot find alternate care fast enough to continue. Which means my time in this program is finished. They will not let me back. I do not fault them for their rules. They are there for a reason. It is just sad that I have out so much time into this school and will not be able to complete the program. I have only my engagement ring and wedding band for jewelry. That I am hoping to get enough by selling it to get my car inspected. I have a church music degree. It's hard to get a job in your field when you don't go to church anymore. Besides, it would pay worse than I get paid now. Maybe I should look into music therapy. I don't know if it is financially smart or not. It seems like a low paying occupation for the amount of education required. I don't know what to really do anymore. Yes, I know I sound negative. It has been one thing after another, daily for over a week now in top of the stress of the impending divorce. I am just in a dark place right now and do not see it resolving any time soon. Everyone says it will. I just hope they are right.
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    Do I have any options?

    Well, so much for that. My son got kicked out of his babysitter's today. My options are finished. Goodbye nursing school. Hello 25k in student loans plus what the soon to be exhusband left me with. And no way to pay for any of it.
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    Do I have any options?

    It's not the books that are a problem. I have most of my books in e-format from the semester I had mono. It's the supplies. The ati registration, the lab bags, and the things the school designs specifically for the program and does not allow you to buy used. Regarding food pantries, I have humbled myself to go to one. I am not against going again. With my boy's diets all that I can get for them is rice and applesauce there though and since I have a little of both right now, I can hold off. My kids are dairy free, so um...not sure what that means other than, almond milk is pricey but I only use it for making their bread to add some calcium. We buy no sodas, I buy enough juice to give little guy his meds in as he won't take them with water, and we drink water from the tap. It's the childcare that's the hugest issue. I will not give them to my husband. I would not see them again and he would fight me tooth and nail to get them back at the end. He already tells them things that make them think I am the reason for everything. He is slowly trying to compel them to want to stay with him forever. Many days I fear he will be successful. In other news, I have been so stressed about all of this that I haven't had time to study. I must be learning something at work because my first quiz I had more meds right than I ever would have imagined (def not 100% but passable). And at my first skills assessment I was too stressed to care about worrying if my needle placement was right. I nailed every single injection and question regarding those medications and reconstitutions. My classmates studied all week for this skills assessment. Many had to repeat and I truly believe it was their nerves that got the best of them as they are brilliant and do know their stuff. I think I was just too tired and stressed about simply being able to stay enrolled that I did not have room for test nerves.
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    Do I have any options?

    Regarding friends...I moved here when he left to be closer to school. My friends are down here, but are all students. So, their time to help is as limited as mine. I have asked. There is no availability.
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    Do I have any options?

    Ex is an hour and a half away and has offered to keep them while I finish school, but it is only to get out of paying child support I feel. Secondly, between school all week and working full time on the weekends, I would never get to see my children. There would be no opportunity. The mother in me cannot walk out of their lives for almost two years for the sake of a degree. On top of that, I would end up paying HIM support having them full time. I would lose the ability to pay my rent. I hate looking at it that way, but the child support literally pays my rent. I would end up homeless.
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    Do I have any options?

    None of which are in my kids school zone. They are there but kindergarten is half day and little guy needs help getting to school either by transport or getting on the bus. Those places do not transport and the bus route does not go to those locations. Regardless, those options all require payment up front, even if it wasn't a moot point.
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    Do I have any options?

    Loans maxed out and not disbursed in time to use for childcare. Family across the country or in other states. All of which blame me because I do not go to church. Because apparently my cheating husband is not responsible for his own genitals. Husband would never let me leave the state with the children anyway.
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    Do I have any options?

    I get less than 100 in food stamps monthly. Childcare assistance requires already established daycare and a five month wait. My student loans I will only receive half of until the semester is through. That will all go to tuition and the bookstore the first half and I will get no reimbursement until the semester is over. There does not seem to be any help that will come now. I've out a week into class. I will not be allowed back into the program if I drop again. And yet, I barely have enough to pay for one week of childcare if these kids are going to eat. I have contacted every resource I can find and I seem to be in that loophole where you make just slightly over the cut off. So too much to get help and not enough to live. I have been reduced to food pantries. Fafsa, welfare, childcare network...I spent hours in campus just to get online to look for scholarships and found nothing specific to me that I would qualify for. I'm exhausted. I just don't know where else to look.
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    Do I have any options?

    I have a useless bachelors degree. In 15 years I have never found employment in my field and have had a string of fast food jobs to Help my husband sustain our family. I began the track towards nursing and got a job as a nurses assistant. I love my job. I got mono last semester (semester two of clinical for me in my ADN program) and was forced to take that semester off. In that time, my husband left. And yes he pays court appointed child and spousal support, I am still running out of money every single paycheck. I only pay for essentials barring a Mc Donald's frozen coffee once or twice a week when I have to be up for 24 hours straight for work. I just did the math. After rent, I have 200 dollars left. My childcare provider for clinical is 100 a week. That leaves nothing for groceries. I am facing the stark reality that after working toward this goal for ten years, stopping every time my husband pitched a fit, only to try and return later, that I may not be able to finish. My job's education plan is 1k a year and the expectation you will sign on for 3 years each time they give it to you. They do not pay ahead. I would have to pay out of pocket and they would reimburse if my grades are fine. I seriously contemplated a second job, but with my kids and their therapies (2 high functioning ASD) it would be a moot put because all study time would be gone. I just don't know what to do. I contemplated an online degree but hear so much negative about them, and I had to purchase a computer through my bookstore, just so I could use my financial aid as I had no money for the purchase. If I drop out this semester I am stuck paying the college back for the computer and not sure how that will affect my financial aid. I will obviously not have the funds to pay for it until I have my degree. I just don't know what to do at this point and am pretty down and out and overwhelmed thinking about it all.
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    E-Books vs. Regular Textbooks

    There is a pretty long topic I made about this at the beginning if the semester. It works if you have a tablet PC or iPad best. I use two different apps in order to get all my text books, and still three were not available in e reader format. I did get ten of them though. Plus the journals we had to subscribe to. The drug guide works much easier as an app than as a book, so if anything aim for that one. Cox's nursing diagnosis book (I can't think of the title off the top of my head) was the most difficult to navigate with, but after a learning curve I'm finally figuring it out. The rest is pretty easy. The pages aren't the same but that's as bad as it gets, and with carrying my laptop everywhere and my huge day timer, it has really saved my back. Between work and other commitments, I study in snatches, so I have all my books with me at any given time. I can decide what I want to study whenever I have a moment and its normally just a matter of pulling out the iPad.
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    What to do when your patient adores you?

    Simply say "I'm sorry, we are not allowed to give out personal information but thank you for your kind words."
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    No social life...can anyone else relate?

    What s a social life?