sunshine1782

Gumby, Thank you so much. Last night I broke down and just spewed out everything that was bothering me. I feel much better today and it's comforting to hear people are having similar experiences, I don't feel so alone. xo K

You are right. I do need to get over it and realize I'm letting the 10 year old inside get the best of me. Thanks for taking the time to write me your experience.

Hi everyone, I am a nursing student in an accelerated program and feel so inadequate. I was just told by my nursing friend that I'm out to lunch regarding the school schedule and I get made fun of for little things I do. Now I get nervous around everyone and feel like I'm being judged. I'm not like this outside of school. Everyone is in these cliques and I feel so left out. One person mocked me at the table thinking I didn't see and I went home crying. I ended up getting out of their group for a project because I didn't want to be around her. I should have told her what I saw but didn't want to get into a dialogue of who said what. I think the underlying fear is that I won't be a good nurse. I am doing fine in school, except one class when I found out my father has cancer and the entire subject was cancer, I ended up getting a C. I don't think I've ever received a C. It was because I forgot to turn something in. Aside from this, I was diagnosed with ADD and try so hard to keep on top of things. I went to UC Berkeley and that was WAY easier than this school. I am also in AA, have been sober for 6 years, and feel like I need to take medication for my ADD so people won't make fun of me and so I can improve my grades. But I know they're addictive and have tried the non-stimulants. I'm sorry if I sound like I'm complaining, I just need some type of support or advice. I think I have such compassion and such a drive to help people but am just stuck in a state of fear. I've been around many nurses in clinical rotations and don't think they seem any smarter than me, but everyone in my class seems so smart and so confident. I know this is my own fault. I think a lot of people in many ways set themselves up for the way they're treated, but I need help figuring out ways to cope. My questions are: How do you or did you deal with the cliques? Feeling left out? Feeling judged? If you do have ADD, how did you keep up with everything? Was there an herb, vitamin or food that helped you focus? What are ways you have dealt with self confidence issues? If you are a working nurse now and feel like you're doing a great job, did you ever doubt your competence when you were in school?