idnurse2b

I am a 4th semester student graduating in December (theoretically, haha) with my Associate of Science in Nursing. I was just accepted into an RN to BSN online program at a state university to start January 16th. Does anyone have an opinion or have you had an experience with whether it is better to gain some experience before starting a BSN program or if it's best to just jump in? My concerns about starting right away, are that I won't know as much as an RN who has been practicing for a while and that maybe the curriculum is designed for RNs who have experience. My concerns about waiting are that I will loose momentum and motivation after working for a while and I won't desire to go back to school or I will have a hard time getting back into "student mode". Any comments would be appreciated :)

I am a fourth semester nursing student and last semester I experienced my first code (she actually coded three times). I felt like I had mulitple personality disorder after it. Part of me was really excited because I had never been involved in a code blue before and I had never seen CPR performed on a person. It was a learning experience and I took advantage of it. The other part of me was horrified at what I had seen. This patient was young and her children who were my age were in the waiting room. I managed to keep that side of me at bay until I got off from clinical and went home and started to process the whole thing and then I burst into tears. So, my question; Am I supposed to have a "nursing" mode and a "normal human" mode? Or am I supposed to find a happy medium between the two? It almost felt like a defense mechanism so I could function through the situation. I am planning on being a NICU or peds nurse, and sometimes I worry about how I will handle it when my patients don't make it. Any advise or comments would be appreciated :)