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hi everyone. before i go into my situation, i have to say that some of the details may be somewhat graphic. i am not in anyway wanting to offend anyone but i have to be totally honest "in detail" so that i can real and honest feedback. first off, i was offered a wonderful opportunity to volunteer in the er at a hospital in my town. i have not started in my nursing program just yet but i felt that by volunteering i would gain great knowledge and experience. and just the fact that i was chosen out of 20 others for this meant so much to me. i went this past monday for my drug test and tb skin test. i felt really great leaving because i knew i would be starting this volunteer job this weekend. i received a call today from the volunteer coordinator and she told me that i would not be able to be a volunteer because my health results not up to par. i immediately contacted the lady that administered the drug and tb skin test to find out what was wrong and she told me that i failed my drug screen. on top of that, she told me that i tested positive for cocaine. i instantly went into shock because i know for a fact that i have never (and would never) experiment with any type of drugs. i did list all of the drugs that i had taken within the last month before taking the drug test. i listed oxycodone (prescribed last week when i had 3 wisdom teeth removed) and clorazepate (for anxiety). the last time i took the clorazepate was approximately 3 weeks ago. i have done extensive research on both and i cannot find any ties to cocaine in either drug. **this is the graphic part** two saturdays ago, i was intimate with my boyfriend, who is a cocaine user. i have tried so many times to get him help to stop because even though i am in love with him, there is no way possible that i would be able to go into nursing and have any type of personal dealings with drugs. i did perform oral sex and i tasted a very nasty chemical taste in my mouth. the taste literally made me sick at my stomach. i can't help but wonder if that is where the cocaine came from. i also researched to find out if it can be transported through body fluids and everything i have read so far says that it is only transported through the bloodstream. i need answers from anyone who has knowledge on this type of thing. i must admit that i am so very heartbroken because i lost my volunteering opportunity and i just had to end things with the man that i love because i just cannot have him jeopardizing my future that i have worked so hard for. someone please give me some advice/insight into this horrible situation. and thanks in advance for reading my post. hi everyone. before i go into my situation, i have to say that some of the details may be somewhat graphic. i am not in anyway wanting to offend anyone but i have to be totally honest "in detail" so that i can real and honest feedback. first off, i was offered a wonderful opportunity to volunteer in the er at a hospital in my town. i have not started in my nursing program just yet but i felt that by volunteering i would gain great knowledge and experience. and just the fact that i was chosen out of 20 others for this meant so much to me. i went this past monday for my drug test and tb skin test. i felt really great leaving because i knew i would be starting this volunteer job this weekend. i received a call today from the volunteer coordinator and she told me that i would not be able to be a volunteer because my health results not up to par. i immediately contacted the lady that administered the drug and tb skin test to find out what was wrong and she told me that i failed my drug screen. on top of that, she told me that i tested positive for cocaine. i instantly went into shock because i know for a fact that i have never (and would never) experiment with any type of drugs. i did list all of the drugs that i had taken within the last month before taking the drug test. i listed oxycodone (prescribed last week when i had 3 wisdom teeth removed) and clorazepate (for anxiety). the last time i took the clorazepate was approximately 3 weeks ago. i have done extensive research on both and i cannot find any ties to cocaine in either drug. **this is the graphic part** two saturdays ago, i was intimate with my boyfriend, who is a cocaine user. i have tried so many times to get him help to stop because even though i am in love with him, there is no way possible that i would be able to go into nursing and have any type of personal dealings with drugs. i did perform oral sex and i tasted a very nasty chemical taste in my mouth. the taste literally made me sick at my stomach. i can't help but wonder if that is where the cocaine came from. i also researched to find out if it can be transported through body fluids and everything i have read so far says that it is only transported through the bloodstream. i need answers from anyone who has knowledge on this type of thing. i must admit that i am so very heartbroken because i lost my volunteering opportunity and i just had to end things with the man that i love because i just cannot have him jeopardizing my future that i have worked so hard for. someone please give me some advice/insight into this horrible situation. and thanks in advance for reading my post.