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Hi, I haven't posted much on here. I'm 25 and I am enrolled to start nursing school this August. I am go to school at a community college right now to get my cna. My problem is that I am scared of the future. For so long I told myself I would never be a nurse. My mom and sister are both nurses. My mom always told me all the time that I should be a nurse. She has been sick a alot of my life and I was always the one who took care of her. I have changed her urostomy bag, emptied it, helped her go to the restroom, helped her bathe, help her walk around... but the thought of taking cna classes and then becoming a nurse terrifies me. Everyone tells me that I would be a great nurse.. That I'm calm, patient, kind, compassionate... My boyfriend said that me and being a nurse just fits. He says its what I was made for. And everything seems to be falling into place. But I have this huge fear, due to previous bad experiences in my life, that I won't be able to do the job. That for some reason it will be too hard for me and I will mess up. I'm smart. I get good grades, but its like this hindering fear. I have had problems with anxiety in the past and went through a bout of depression and panic attacks. I have been panic attack free and not depressed for over a year and a half. I have grown up so much and felt like I was until I just had to sign up for cna classes. Its like I was avoiding doing this until now. Now its starting... cna classes then nursing school. Here my life changes significantly. I never thought I would get here. I've been having this anxiety attack for a few days now. I can't stop fearing that I won't be able to do it and that I will hate it. That I won't be good enough to have someone under my care. That I won't be able to learn how. I know this isn't common, and I know that some people will think that I shouldn't be a nurse, and sometimes i don't think I want to. But everyone around me is confused as to why I think that. They all tell me it just fits me, and I would be an awesome nurse. Can anyone relate to this? How do I get past this? Will I be able to learn it? What do I do? I feel like giving up before I start, but I know if I do that I will regret it for the rest of my life. All of me wants to stay in my office job and just work that the rest of my life, because it is safe... but I know that I would feel worthless because I live up to my full potential. Please, I need some help...

Hi, I am new here. You can call me CeCe :) I am currently taking a few prereq classes that I need to apply to a nearby BSN accelerated program that last 2 years. I am also going to apply to some other ones, including one year programs. I am about to get engaged and my boyfriend and I have been discussing when we should plan the wedding for. The 2 year begins in August. Most one year programs where I am from start in January. I would be starting in August 2011 or the following January. I would like to get married that fall or that next spring, so I have enough time to plan it, but it would conflict with the nursing program. Would I be able to get married and go on a week honeymoon? Would I have the summers off during the 2 year program so I could get married then or do you take classes in the summer too? I'm not really sure how this works or if the program and teachers would be lenient about this, but I don't want to wait another three years to get married. Can someone give me answers to some of my questions, and maybe a calendar or begin and end dates of usual programs. I'm sorta lost here. Thanks for anything you can help with!! :)