Tightropewalker

I'm a new student, as green as they come-and a distance student. I was at guided practice for the second session, were in the middle of a first attempt at a neurological assessment, I burst out crying. My instructor had called it and told me that I could do this particular assessment again later. It meant a 5 1/2 hour drive back to Edmonton next week. I felt like my heart had just been crushed in her fist! What was left of my already dwindling self confidence was gone. I managed to regain my composure. Eventually. I realized that I had totally lost myself to academia. She was God and I was nothing. Now I get mild panic attacks at the thought of going back. How do I keep from crumbling under pressure? I'll try anything!