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Ever just feel so stupid and ask yourself why did I do that? Like common sense just flew by for about 5 minutes. Well that happened to me today. I am 18 weeks pregnant and work on a cardiac step down unit. I was giving medications like always, but after washing my hands I just opened the containers and dropped the pills in the container without gloves. I never touched the medication, but it was methotrexate and I just froze and washed my hands. I went to the pharamicist and they all treated me like a dummy...they said "well if you didn't touch the medication why are you so worried" is all I got from them. So helpful. And then I got "do you honestly think any of the medication was absorbed through your skin that quickly?" I wanted to cry with lack of care or concern for me. I even asked an oncologist I hardly even knew in the hallway for his opinion and I got about the same response. Nobody understood my feelings for my unborn child. I just can't help but worry now. I have already had an ultrasound and everything was perfect but can only fear the worse.