Lorettaxyz

Hi everyone! I'm seeking help to deal with this devastating situation. Unfortunately, I was a repeating student, so my anxiety level was out of control, always fearing "What will I do if I fail again?" Please understand, I started my first prereq almost 18 years ago, had 4 children in between, and had some unexpected turns in my life...yet I made it, all the way through. The problem was with each semester, my test anxiety became worse. During the last semester, I bombed the first 3 exams despite intense studying. The instructor suggested I take the exams in an isolated area from the rest of the class. I did, and what a difference...I got B's on the rest of the exams. Unfortunately, I didn't earn enough total points on the final to make up for the first 3 exams. I've been told "it just wasn't meant to be" and "I should consider an LPN program, or choose another major". I'm so numb inside, I don't know what to do. I've made so many sacrifices, my marriage has crumbled, my kids have suffered...for what? I've worked in a hospital for almost 20 years now, nights. (Which added to the problem, I'm sure) I know I was meant to be a nurse. I would really appreciate any suggestions to help me deal with these feelings as well as any info about not having to start from scratch, if possible. Thank you, Lorettaxyz