Rude

Alright just joined this great forum today, and I need advice from you all. This is my story (my life of mistakes) please read and any advice would be greatly appreciated. I am 27 years old and ruined my life when I was 23. I wanted to be a nurse since I was 19 years old, I was an intelligent young adult that was unfortunately very weak without the help of others. I went for advice from the nursing adviser to increase my chances to be accepted to the nursing program. My gpa at the time was a 3.39 and this lady pretty much tore me up saying that she was VERY sure I had no chance for the nursing program and it would be best if I applied for another major. Now, while most rational people would just blow her off and continue on their goals, I was at the worst point of my life at that time (age,23). A close relative passed away, and my fiance (dated her 8 years, all I knew) left me and because of that my family pretty much disowned me and they took my savings I had at the time, 5k (a long story). With all of these things happening at around the same time period I went into a depression, started drinking and etc. While I wanted to be a nurse the feeling of being a failure took control of me, all I wanted to do was graduate as soon as possible and just be gone for a while....This is/was my biggest mistake. Today I hate myself for doing this (what was I thinking!), over the last 4 years I changed my major 4 times to criminal justice, business, dietics, and communication disorders. Now, I am very intelligent but without passion for something you are destined to fail and this is what happened. I would take these classes and hate it, hence the reason why I changed my major so many times. I took a lot of classes and I would get c's and would drop classes destroying my gpa. I then lost my financial aid and had to work full time just to barely pay my classes in time, plus over the last 2 years I coudnt even afford books, so I would just go to class without a book to study and not do as well as I could getting these horrible grades. Forward to present day, my gpa is a pathetic 2.85 and Im a year and a half away from graduating with a communication disorders degree. While my new major interest me, my love is for nursing, I feel horrible about the mistakes I made over the last 4 years, I really wish someone had cleared some sense into me before I ruined my gpa. My question for you all is, Would you still trying to get into a nursing program knowing my situation? What would you do if you were in my situation? Im assuming if I attempted nursing again I would have to take my Anp, and bio courses again. I am going to speak to the nursing director in my school but I just want to hear other peoples opinions on the matter before I do. Thanks for your time and any advice would be greatly appreciated.