RN_Ashley

I don't know what the heck they were thinking, but I finally did get a preceptor... i was with her almost 8 weeks I think? I feel a lot better about most things now... it's still so stressful and i feel like i'm forgetting things all the time..and i still hate it... :/

I just started a job as a new RN and i'm starting out at 17.25/hr.... my first paycheck was only for a week and it was way better than what i was used too. I just got my second paycheck, and i was amazedddd. Haha.

Suctioning seriously freaks me out. I had the sound and it makes me gag. I HATE IT.

So, what type of facility do you work in? 125-bed hospital What unit? Medical Surgical Do you work part-time or full time? Full-time What type of shifts do you work? 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM

I AM SO GLAD THAT I AM NOT ALONE ON THIS!!!! I graduated nursing school in December. My dream job is a L&D nurse, but of course they want someone with experience and frankly, this is the only job I've been able to get so I took it bc i needed it. I just started my first nursing job May 10. I've only been on the floor for 2 weeks now. My very first day they went ahead and assigned me 2 patients ON MY OWN. NO PRECEPTOR! I had a complete meltdown! I didn't know what the heck I was doing. The charge nurse saw the distress on my face and asked me what was wrong. I just completely broke down. She helped me for the rest of the day. Every day since then I was assigned with a preceptor. Then this past week, they started assigning me pt's on my own again except they gave me an RN who is responsible for helping me when I need it. A few days ago, the only other RN who was there to help me was a night shift RN. She volunteered to work day shift because we needed her. Other than her and I, there were only 2 LPN's. Needless to say, she was completely rude and basically left me by myself. She would come ask me if I needed help every once in a while but she said it in such a way as though she didn't really care if I needed help or not. And when I actually needed help, I couldnt find her anywhere. That night, I ended up staying til 8:45 getting things done. She left at 7:15. An LPN stayed with me until 8:45 helping me get everything I needed to get done. If she wouldn't of been there and offered to help me, I would've been there til midnight!!! At this point in time, I dread going to work. And starting tomorrow, it'll be my 3rd week on the floor, and I'll have 3 patients to myself. On my off days, my mind is consumed with "Did I forget to chart anything?" "Did I write down that Dr's Order right?!" (half our dr's our foreign and i cannot understand a word they say and I keep having to ask them to repeat themselves). It's even consuming my dreams!!!!!!! This has got to get easier. I come home crying almost every day. I just feel like i'm incompetent. I don't know if I can handle it!!!