its up to you to decide waht you really want, if you think that pursuing nursing is good for you then go for it, but if not, then stop.. yes, you promise to your mother that you will be in the field of nursing, but i think if your mother is still alive, she will understand you, because she knows that atleast you do your best to fullfil what you have promised,, but if the time comes that you are ready to face bsn again, then go for it.....