Hello, This is my story/rant just a little background info - Male, soon to be 21, no children, living with parents, first semester nursing student. so iv'e been a part time student for quite some time after graduating Highschool, i wanted to become a dentist so i went to St Johns university to pursue a degree in biology... however after my 2nd day of Chem classes i decided there was no way on earth i was going to be a dentist. after that i followed through with my studies for another semester doing quite poorly my GPA suffered greatly. at this time i was considering enter the nursing field. At the start of my 2nd semester i had a falling out with my girlfriend/ fiance for 2 years and withdrew from classes because i knew i would'nt be able to focus on anything besides her, btw its been a year and change and i do still think about her. After that i got a job in retail to make the time go by until the upcoming semester came so i could register for classes... i quit that job in retail, hated it more than anything So after that i ended up signing up for classes at cuny city tech, i took my prereqs for their nursing program on weekends and at evenings. they went fairly well, however over the summer i got a job as a porter for a big building in the city, fyi i am extremely handy i love working on cars and fixing things, i could build a house with my own two hands. Anyways i loved this job it wasnt very much work, the work was easy, and the pay was good for my needs $16 /hr not bad for a college student, regular pay is around 22/hr. this was however a temporary job lasted about 3 months. After those 3 months i signed up for classes again and applied for the nursing program, surprisingly i got into there Associates program, i got a 68 on the pre entrance exam ( i didnt study at all) but my pre req grades were good. Anyways ive just started my First semester as a nursing student, and idk if this is what i want to do, the stress is unbelievable and the work, well the work seems manageable but the damn instructors seem to enjoy making things complicated for no reason. Anyways ive been offered jobs back in the building where i was previously working, the owner said he'd like me to work in another one of his buildings. ive been thinking about this, idk if im cut out to be a nurse, how do i know this is for me? ive been thinking that if i dont make it as a nurse maybe i should go back and take that job and hopefully work my way up to a building super. im not sure what to do, i have my first exam in a few weeks idk what to study or what to expect, soo much of nursing so far seems like common sense/ requires only minimal critical thinking for me. i am unsure if this is the field for me, how did you all know this was what you wanted. right now one of the major reasons im chasing nursing is the paycheck, i do want a big house, and nice car, etc the american dream. But nursing might just be driving me crazy as of now my classes are on Monday clinical, and tuesday lecture, med math, and a child psych class. besides that im off the other 5 days. idk if im capable of making it in nursing, how did you guys know? did you ever think of giving up? this is my first post here, i dont really have any friends besides one or two, and i dont think theyd be able to give me an advice that you all could. I dont really talk to people i like being alone honestly. idk i sit and try to read but it seems so boring and the material repeats itself. idk i'd be a great help if i could get an insight as to some other nursing stories out there, as well as other opinions.