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i work in the er and we have one doctor who screams and yells - and i mean screams from halfway across the er at nurses, patients, visitors whoever - the next minute he acts like nothing happened - i don't know why the hospital puts up with it - i have personally complained but no change.

i jsut want to thank everyone for their support - it was hard to even get myself to read any replies. i've spoken to so many people regarding this and basically say the same thing - you learn and move on - sometimes that helps me and other times it does not. as far as anything happening to me - i felt it was just brushed under the rug - i probably would have felt better if i was punished somehow but i wasn't. anyway i continue to be a nurse and i try to be the best that i can - although this is definetely a hard job. thanks again to everyone - i will try to post more positive subjects in the future - by the way i have been looking at this site for years.

I was on orientation but basically told after 5 weeks i should be able to handle my 8 or 9 patient by myself and that i am too slow - the patient had a central line - so i really feel like it was my fault. the sad part is that nobody seemed to think it was a big deal at all - meanwhile i was devastated. although looking back i do think i should not have been left alone with 8 or p patients - somedays it was 12 patients for one nurse - i was completely in over my head which i still feel is no excuse - i'd also heard before that it takes a lot of air to cause a problem so i really didn't think i would cause harm. i guess i feel like i should have been punished and never was - since then i have been a good nurse - very cautious - and never let myself be rushed to the point of carelessness.

i'll try to be as brief as possible but here goes - i have been a nurse for about 9 years - when i was new on orientation i was overwhelmed, rushed, panicked and made a mistake by not priming an iv line properly - the patient got a cerebral embolism and died a week later. since then i continued nursing but have never been able to get over this and have suffered extreme depression. i have never been able to forgive myself for being so stupid - i was a straight A student - the kindest person you could know - since then i have been to therapy - but nothing seemed to help. please try not to be too brutal with your replies.