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Thank you everyone. I'm going to hope and pray and wait to get back into the school I was in but also apply to another school. I'm trying to keep my options open. I rather go back to my school though because I know what they are going to teach and I have all the books and I already have all the uniforms and I know what to expect. I called another Jr. College in the area but they require a 75 or higher and if you fail anything you are out just like the program I was in except the program I was in you could make a 70 or higher. So I just pray things fall back into place because at the moment my world has turned upside down. I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself, I'm more hating myself and I wake up every morning thinking you should be in school. I'm just still so hurt but I am not ready to give up and especially not after some of you guys stories. I have reapplied to the school I was in and I am applying to our community college LVN program to I'll keep looking for others. I am just praying for everything to work out for the best.

Hi, I'm sorry if this has been asked before, I have been looking but haven't come accross exactly what I wanted to know. I wanted to know what you guys thought about acceletrated programs that can go from LVN to BSN and from BSN to MSN? Do they look bad on resumes or is a degree a degree? I live in Houston TX, I am having some trouble right now (that's another story in a nother fourm on this site) but once I get back up and running after I finish an LVN program I have read about a program offered by Texas A&M PV that is online and can take you from LVN to BSN. It has always been my dream however to go to UT Austin to get my BSN but if this other program will get me where I want to be by the year goal I have set for myself would this be bad? I have 6 more biology classes to take then I can apply for UT or any other college that offers a regular BSN program. I am just wondering about these other types that are offered and would like opinions from people who are not trying to promote the school.

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Thank you all so much. You don't know how much help you've been to me. :heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat

Hi everyone. Well I am sitting in the waiting room at the counsoler office at my school at the moment to see and talk about everything. I just finished talking to the head of the nursing department. She had me fill our a paper and told me it's not guaranteed but it is highly probable that I can get back in starting in August because all my grades are good and I told her I really do want to be there. I told her how I felt while taking the test she seemed to act like she at least cared. She had me fill out a form for reentry in to the program. Now all I do is wait and pray. And I suppose apply to other schools wouldn't hurt. (I live in Houston TX we have more than one nursing program here.). Anyway, yes they make you take the entire level over again just because of 1 bad grade. And you do have to pay everything up front. They are a pretty well known Jr. College so it's not like they are some small Internet school that cause people to think "oh that's why.". I saw my test the stuff I messed up on was sooo stupid! I am so stupid for missing it! It was so easy I just froze. That's all it was. I knew how to do that stuff. I just can't believe myself. I was in a full time nursing program. There is no part time. The only part time is LVN to RN mobility but I'm not on that level yet. But I hope and pray to be there sooner than later. This is what I really want to do and I don't want to give up. I'm not ready to give up. So yes at this point this is where I'm at. I signed a paper for a highly probable reentry into the LVN program. And after reading all you guys helpful post I'll be looking into other programs just for a back up. I'm so sad and I feel so stupid but I'm not ready to give up.

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actually i do have a mild form of dyslexia. i was told that there is really nothing i can do about it now because of my age and that if i would have told someone when i was younger i could have did things to work on it. i've always seen things backwards randomly and i can read things backwards really easy like if it was written right. unfortunately, i cannot take the test again. and i will have to take the entire level over again and start from the beginning. i am a very nervous test taker but this was the worst ever! i'm so disappointed, but the suggestion made by studentkk, about practicing out loud and making up my own little test, i think that is a very good idea. i am taking everyone’s (all but 1 ) suggestions in to consideration, thank you all. also thank you for all the well wishes. i am still so sad and a little anxious to go meet with the head of the department tomorrow. but i am ready and hope to have an answer and know what will become of me next. i am praying they let me back in because i know i can do this. thank you everyone.

Thanks, that is really good advice. Thank you all.

Thanks, I am very sad, but you are right. I need to get out of this nasty poo and just keep going. And yes, I have always had anxiety over all but I have been able to control it. And test anxiety I have always had it but I also was able to control it or it never got THIS bad. THIS was bad. I got dizzy and started to almost black out to where by the time they told us TIME, our 5 mintues they gave us was up and what got me was I didn't write all I should have wrote. Instead I stood there frozen trying to get myself together. I think I will talk to a doctor. My husband has been telling me I should go to one as well.

First of all, My husband and my daugter are not distractions they are the reasons I am doing this. Second, I KNOW the material. I was nervous. It was not multiple choice it was fill in the blank and as I have said before, it was a skills test. And on all my skills I had gotten 100's. If you must know since you are so quick to judge, it wasn't even a writen out question. It was a small table with a scenario and then we had to write out what the scenario was and write out what the scenario was and we had 5 minutes to do it. I have anxiety and it got the best of me when I was taking the test. I do not want to be any kind of tech I want to be a nurse. I knew someone would be quick to tell me I didn't know the material. If I didn't know the material then I do not know how I was able to pass every single little thing they gave me with not only an A but a 100.

I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I’m so depressed I cannot even think straight. I’ll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A’s and 100’s at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn’t memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100’s. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70. If all your grades are 100’s and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points. This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think. I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don’t even have a chance to take and I can’t get my money back for now. I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100’s. I’ve been devoting my life to this. I’ve wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed. I’m not looking for pity here, I’m looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how…I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low. I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I’ve always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can’t help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing. I just can’t believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there. I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I’m just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment. I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.