kayjayheartsu

Hey Everyone, I've been in college for almost 2 1/2 years now. My GPA throughout school is a 3.0. I've never wanted to go into nursing but since the program I wanted rarely accepts anyone theres not much for me to choose from. I've heard some nasty stories, pros, and cons from my mom who was a RN herself. Also reading these forums most of them are negative nellys. So it makes me hate thinking of even going into nursing even more. No one states what kind of nurse they are, the ones complaining might be staff nurses there are tons of different nurses out there and I would like to know how they feel. I really have no idea what I would be good at. I have low self esteem but I try not to let it get the best of me. I'm very organized person. I love to clean. I'm patient but it depends on what situation I'm in. I like to get things done fast and to never be bored. I'm not that great at any subjects in school but I try my hardest. I don't have any talents or inspiration for a career. I want to get a masters degree in healthcare I've thought about OBGYN or nurse practitioner..but thats where my low self esteem kicks in that I'll never be good at anything. I can't handle gross things people say I'll get used to it which could be true. I just dont see myself wiping someones butt, to be honest I can;t stand cleaning up after my dogs mess. It makes me gag. But if I don't like something I'll probably quit. I have trouble following directions and have selective hearing I hope I won't always be like that though. I want to be able to have time for a family, to have enough money to get by, and like most aspects of my job. On a good day, I feel like I'll have time to learn and expereince everything, that it wont be as bad as people say it is, and I'll be a better person for making others happy and to feel better. I just don't want to make the wrong move. Theres nothing else I can do.