Florry, I think that you are doing a wonderful thing for this young girl! While we do have to take care of ourselves, and try not to get overly attached too often, it does happen. It sounds like you have bonded with this child, and are able to give her something that means a great deal to her. I expect most oncology nurses, in fact most nurses in general, who have direct patient contact, have stories of special patients who have touched their hearts. I know I do! By the way, in the USA we have an organization called "The Make A Wish Foundation", which helps severely and terminally ill children realize their dreams. If you contact them, they may be able to help you get autographs and photos of American celebrities. Sometimes they can even arrange for visits or telephone calls from the "stars." It could be worth checking into, if you haven't already. Bless you for caring!