BrittanyMOSmith

Ok, just a little background on me.... I have known since I was young that I wanted to be a nurse. I graduated from high school ( Class of 2009) a year early. I got my CNA certification while I was still in high school. I still live with my parents, therefore I didn't need the job for the money, just for the experience. I started Nursing 101 about 8 weeks ago. I am in an excellerated program where I take all my pre-requisites along with my nursing classes. Oh yeh and I am only 17 years old!!! Now my dilemma.... I looked for a job as a CNA all summer after high school graduation! I finally got hired at a hospital about 2 weeks before I started nursing school. The job was full time (3 12 hour shifts). I thought I would be ok but I quickly found out once school started that I was wrong. In order to be at work att 6:45 i had to wake up at 4:30 am because the hospital was 1 and a half hours away. Then when I got off work I wouldn't get home until almost 9:00 pm. On Monday's I would go to class from 8 to 5. Tuesday's work a 12 hour shift. Wednesday's class from 8 to 3. Thursday's Clinical from 6:30 to 3:00. Friday's work a 12 hour shift. Saturday's work a 12 hour shift. Sunday's were my only days off. I had a nervous break-down. I had to start taking Prozac!! So I told my supervisor and she said well we will see about getting you transferred to Flex. So I got transferred to Flex at a hospital 45 minutes closer to me. Now I only have to work two 8 hour shifts per month plus I got a raise to $12.29 per hour. The problem is that I absolutely despise going to work at the hospital. Everytime I work I have to hold back tears because I am just miserable. I love my patients and I love the work that I do. I am just miserable and I cannot understand why. Working at the hospital and having these feelings makes me seriously doubt wanting to be a nurse. I am confused and I do not know what to do. I feel like I would have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders if I resigned. However, I was just transferred and have only worked 2 shifts at the new hospital! I do not want to let anybody down and I also don't want to ruin my record when I go to get a job after graduation! But what if I am just as miserable after graduation?! Somebody HELP!!!