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I went to speak to an admissions counselor at the local CC today about going back to school for nursing, and my GPA wasn't as good as I thought it was. The only pre req's I completed were the english 101/102 and speech (i need to retake speech as I got a D in it...I was late to class and missed my time slot to give my final speech and the professor wouldn't allow me to do it on another day or after the last person... ah, I remember that day well lol) well I'm looking to do a lot of studying to get ready for the math placement test. Let's hope I've retained at least some of the knowledge I *thought* I had lol.

Hello everyone, I'm a 33 yr old male, that wants to go back to school and become a Nurse. I'm actually off work on Tuesday and plan to go and speak to the admissions person at my local community college to get the ball going... however,... yes there's a however... my problem is that I suffer from panic attacks. Before I lost my last job due to the economy, I was in therapy doing CBT to try and beat this beast, but after I was downsized, I also lost my health ins. and had to stop the therapy. I'm now working a crappy job and no health ins for another 60 days. I've been wanting to go back to school for the last few years, but kept putting it off due to thinking my panic attacks would keep me from reaching my goals and becoming a good nurse. In all honesty, it makes me mad at myself for having to deal with this and even think this way. I want this so bad, but I've let my panic attacks control me. When I told my daughter (she's 10) that I was going to the college on Tuesday to begin the process, she gave me a big hug and said how proud she is of me. She's my motivation for wanting better in life... she keeps me going no matter how tough things get for us.... I've searched and read how there are others on this board that also have a panic disorder, and I guess in a way, that makes me feel a little better in knowing I'm not the only one and if they were able to beat it, I'll be able to as well.. As I get to the bottom of this post, I'm not really 100% sure why I posted this, maybe I just need someone to tell me to get off my @$$ and make sure I don't miss Tuesday's appointment lol Thanks! Rob