NewDude

Hi... so what I'm trying to figure out is. Why am I stressed-out? I've looked at different angles and couldn't figure out what it is. Would you recommend that I switch to a med-surg unit? Because a friend of mine recommended it.

2ndWind you hit the nail, that's what I was thinking too, I think I'm being hard on myself, because I "may have" that type A personality. I wan'na make sure I do things, the right way or "my way". It's been very very difficult you guys. I'm going to work tonight with a dreadful feeling. I maybe nonchalant physically as one would see me. But deep down inside, I am screaming and crying! I may sound redundant. But I am really crying for help. My wife does not understand how difficult it is being a Nurse! But is it just me??? did you all go through this too? Is it my coping mechanism? I never had this kind of problem or feelings before, where I am too overwhelmed.

I will consider those books. To make my story worst which I didn't include earlier is I think I'm getting "depressed." Honestly you guys, I don't even have time for myself. I would spend my time with my son as much as I could, he is now my stress reliever. Yet still, once I know I'm scheduled to work, every thing falls apart again then depression kicks in. (Just sharing my emotions right now and unable to put all my thoughts together all at once).

@elkpark Thanks for your words of wisdom and encouragement. @ SteffersRN87 Did you take Xanax or Valium? and if so for how long? It's a step down unit. My preceptor had also mentioned that I do have a great potential of becoming a great nurse. And I see that in myself, again my only real problem is my anxiety. I don't know what other options I have since I know very little about the world of nursing the fact that I am new. Your guess is right, it is more of the acuity or cases of our patients that is dragging me down. It is not the people that I work with but it is more of the patients that we care for. I do love this job, I am just unhappy with what's going on with me physically and mentally. I am still able to think critically and use my judgments competently. I was an A student and studied my butt off when I was in the nursing program. But all my hopes and dreams are coming down with me. As of now, since I became an RN, my brain and my heart is literally crying because I think I don't know how to cope with my problem. Everyone's telling me it is normal. But how normal can it be when it's already pulling me down. By the way, I work NOC shifts. sleeping pattern's been affected too. I am in such a deep mess! Just don't know what to do!!! Kindly, give me more strength readers! Thanks!

I am a new nurse, graduated last December and I have been working on Cardiac/Respirtory Unit (CABG's, Vents, Dysrhythmias, Vtac, kinda like setting, MI). I have been a nurse for the last 4 months and I am so Stressed out "overwhelmed". I can do the job just fine and finished my shift just fine as well. But with lots and lots of heart palpitations and anxiety and it's dragging me down. For the last 4 weeks, it had been difficult for me. As I mentioned, my situation: 3 pts having way too elevated Blood pressures, calling rapid response team, on top of that admissions then having an MI. I kinda know what to do but I am scared. I thought I was actually doing ok. But everytime there's an incident, it drags me down again and increases my anxiety thus I don't even want to go to work anymore, not that I can't do the job, but I can no longer tolerate the stress level, it's affecting me and my family now, simply because of this stressful, dragging, tiring, draining feeling. Is this still normal? I know some of the things I have learned at school. But I kinda studied it myself to figure out what my problem is, and it boils down to me experiencing an incident I never had before, Like MIs, or two of my patients having super HIGH BP which was happening at the same time, plus an admission. So to me, I just need more exposure, I guess. But how will I get rid of the "anxiety". I am so so anxious, there are times that I just wanted to scream and cry. I know I'm guy. But it has been a hell of a ride for me since I became an RN.