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I could have written your post myself. I have been out of orientation for almost 2 months now, and I'm constantly late charting. I make mistakes and spend the nights beating myself up. Charge nurses are nice to me, but I walk around waiting for the day the hospital will hand me a pink slip... And I would not blame'm at all. I feel so stupid, I compare myself to the ppl who graduated w me and feel they have already gotten it, and I haven't. I was one of the top students in RN school. The only one chosen to go to critical care and I can't seem to organize my thoughts and feel as if everything I learned in school has slipped my mind... Whats wrong w me?! Walking back to my car after my shift is a true "walk of shame". I wonder if I'll survive as an RN...

Thank you. You really got the "sentiment" of my post. I will have to look at my contract to tell you exactly what it says.

I'll be ok. Im half way thru my shift and so far so good. I hate that my pts are not on constant monitors though!! but I'll get used to it. btw, I'm having lunch on time for he 1st time EVER!! Haha

Yes, I do have a signed contract.

Thx, and I agree. I am very thankful I have a job, don't get me wrong. And I'm glad I was placed in ICC. It was a shock to learn though, that the unit, shift, and education (all part of my contract) that I was promised are not happening any time soon. it was a shock, it never ran through my head that such thing could happen to me. live'n learn!! :)

Thanks!! That's the plan!! :)

Thanks brandy1017. I know you are right. I guess i just had my "fav toy" taken away, had a pitty party, and i think im almost over it. I will survive n learn from it. I thank everyone's posts who were supportive, empathetic and allowed me the luxury to vent. For the ones who mentioned the job shortage, I wanted to say that everyone who graduated w me got hired within a couple of months max. If u r looking or a job, come to central FL! The market is not that bad here. :)

Thank you for your sympathy!!! I'm now calling the cc course instructor and inquiring about a waiting list/new class expected schedule.

Thx! I do feel cheated, but I'm trying not to point any fingers.

Thank you for your input. The scheduling error was made by the larger hospital that my hospital partners with cuz we don't offer the course. Policy mandates that ICU RNs attend the course, I want to think my manager was caught in between a rock n a hard place...

Thx! I understand I (as every new RN) can only benefit from experience. I think I'm just feeling bad cuz I workwd extremwly hard to land my dream job and it slipped thru my fingers... Just one of those things... Life goes on though. :)

Thank you for your response!! ICC is a step down from ICU, mainly pts coming back from the cath lab or with cardiac issues with drips, no vents, 4 pts/RN. I was hired to work ICU, mostly vented pts, 2pts/RN, day shift. I turned down other jobs to get this one and now I have exactly what I didn't want. I don't see another hospital hiring a new grad ADN into ICU 6 mo post graduation. So I just have to deal w it. I'm gonna gave a pitty party today n then move on.... What can I do, right?!

I worked extremely hard to be top of my class in hopes to be hired into my local hospital' s small ICU. I was not a hospital scholarship student (those took priority in the hiring process) but I did end up getting the only GN position available at the ICU. I'm now in thd end of my training and was getting ready to go downtown for my critical care course, but was told that due to overbooking I was dropped off the course. My manager does not want to keep me without the cc education and is shipping me off to ICC till the course is available again (probably in 1yr). I was also told that "when" I come back to ICU, theres a strong possibility I would be working nights. Which is not what I signed up for... I'm just heart broken. I feel like a little kid who was good all year long, got the coveted gift from Santa just to have it ripped off her hands... Thanks for reading...

Not necessarily. They do what they can. Plus the website was under maintenance a couple of weeks ago. So you never know...

Hi! My results were posted in jut over 48 hrs. But some of my friend's waited up to 10 days.