AngelTM50

I do need all the support I can get and I really look forward to reading your responses! It has helped me so much. We leave for Cleveland again tomorrow, surgery is Friday. I'll be talking with you guys soon, don't know what I would have done without you! Finding this site and all of you has been a god send. THANKS!! Tracy

Thank you! It is very nice to not feel so alone! Tracy

Thank you so much to EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have read lots of information, I have printed a book, I have some really good things from Nat'l cancer inst. Some days are so much harder than others! This last blow, being at cleveland, ready for surgery and finding out that he had multiple liver mets was too much! We knew he had one, only 1.2 cm. They found 5 more with MRI but only .5 cm in size so they cancelled surgery to see what the liver doc wanted to do, if he will be doing anything during the colon surgery for the liver? We are waiting to hear from them today or tomorrow. From what I understand they are all in the right lobe, but I'm not totally sure, I can't remember everything the surgeon said when he called us Friday night with the liver biopsy results, they did the biopsy instead of surgery for now. So far I've been good at remembering everything, but when he said the cancer was definately in his liver I lost being able to concentrate on what was being said. I'll check into IU hospital, all information and help is so deeply appreciated! And thank you everyone for your support and prayers! I believe strongly in the power of prayer and faith! Tracy

I'm an LPN, today has been a really bad day, my boyfriend of 5 years was diagnosed with colon cancer on june 18th. He was supposed to have surgery on July 15th at the cleveland clinic. Surgery was cancelled due to them finding that the cancer had spread to his liver. We were there and all ready, hours to go and surgery was cancelled. It felt like my whole world fell out from underneath me. I can only try to feel how hard this is for him, I feel guilty for even feeling so overwhelmed. I don't let him see me cry.... but that is all I do when I'm alone.. cry and do research on my computer. He is so strong... but today it seems he is taking his frustration/anger out on me and I don't know what to do?????????? I need help.. I can't do this and I don't know where to turn... or what to do...I feel like the worst person in the world for even needing help and maybe I am, maybe he would be better off without me..

We go monday before surgery to MRI the lesion on his liver. I keep praying that it's just the one small lesion and no others will be found. Being a nurse has become a bad thing lately.... I understand what too many of these words mean. I have all the reports, I keep a big binder with his picture on the cover, all of my research and information to date is in there. I've read about the chemo cocktail, I'm so glad to hear from someone who has had it and it's working. All the statistics in the world really just scare you to death and don't end up meaning a whole lot when you consider the fact that we are people, we have names, we are not numbers! Thank you for your support, It's been wonderful to be able to talk to people on here. I can't even begin to tell you how much it's meant to me!!! Tracy

We go to Cleveland on Monday, surgery is Wednesday. He has a 4.5 cm mass in the ascending colon, chest x-ray is clear. CT showed a 1.2 cm lesion undefined on right lobe of liver, all other organs clear. 2 lymph nodes near tumor are suspicious. We won't know the stage till after surgery. I'm thinking stage 2 or 3. Moderately differentiated adenocarcinoma came back from the biopsy taken during colonoscopy. His RBC's, HGB and HCT are down, but just below normal values. CEA is 1.7. I'm learning a lot about colon cancer, I feel like I should have paid more attention to his symptoms, he had every one of the main ones and I didn't see it. I'm a nurse and I didn't see it. I need all the support I can get... most days I'm so overwhelmed and scared. I can't let him see me like that. Thank You!

Thank you!! Your prayers are so appreciated! I still feel like this must be a bad dream.. he's only 43. I've only had 5 years with him, I can't even consider not having him.

I'm new to the site. I'm a nurse, but don't work in the nursing field and haven't for years. My boyfriend was recently diagnosed with Colon cancer. I'm wondering if anyone has some good advice on resources for information. Obviously the Internet is a great resource but it's also huge! Thanks, Tracy