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  1. First of all,advanced happy Mother’s day to all Mothers out there,specially to our mamas who are nurses.I know it’s not easy to be a very busy career woman and mom at the same time. Sorry I don’t want to sound negative,but I am honestly depressed right now,actually tearful about mother’s day.Im sorry my fellow nurses,but I honestly just need to vent about this.Here is my story.For 10 years,I have been a wife but no kids.I have not focused on solving my infertility problem since my focus at that time was graduating nursing school and I am a nurse manager now. Now that I am heading to advanced maternal age per my Dr(no pressure.lol), I can finally feel the pain of not being a mother on mother’s day. I don’t want to go to the mother’s day celebration tomorrow of my relatives.First,my mom is not in this country and I myself am not a mother yet.By the way,2 of my cousins who are way younger than me have just gotten pregnant.I am happy for them.But nobody knows how it hurts to be childless,to # always be an auntie,but not a mother. I do not want to attend that party with people asking me again when are you having a baby,how come you don’t have a baby yet?Hello? If only it’s that easy to just say I’m gonna be pregnant and I’ll have an instant baby.I have PCOS so it’s never that easy. Plus my husband keeps blaming me saying I am too fat now that’s why I can’t get pregnant.i keep telling him I know there are other wives there who are overweight . 2 of his cousins also have overweight wives who have trouble getting pregnant. But they never get treated like this,to have your husband make you feel bad about yourself and be called fat. That being overweight makes you ugly. Its not like it’s my will to not get pregnant.i love children.I can’t even imagine how some women are blessed to be mothers but they manage to dump their babies in the trash or sewer.If only they know how many infertile couples long for even just 1 child. Lets celebrate mother’s day. But let’s please do not make women who are not yet mothers feel very bad about themselves. No money or success in the world can equate to the rewarding feeling of being a mother. Just because I am infertile does not make me less of a person and it does not lessen my value as a human being. I feel left out. But what can I do?i don’t want to blame God or myself that I became like this. I know it is not too late for me I’m still in my mid 30s.my OB just prescribed me fertility pills and I plan on losing weight. Maybe if these prescription pills won’t work,maybe it’s time to end my marriage.i do not want to be selfish to my husband.maybe he can be happy with another woman who can bear him a child.i love him that much I’m willing to let him go just so he can be happy Sorry for the long rant my fellow nurses. I just need to get this out. Please let’s be sensitive tomorrow on mother’s day to all the wives we know out there who struggle with infertility.Im pretty sure some of them feel the way I do.Advanced happy mother’s day my fellow nurses and thank you for everything you do.
  2. hello everyone.i am currently finishing my Rn to bsn online.i am now taking college algebra(pre-calculus) then 2 more online nursing classes left to graduate.i am taking this college algebra class on-campus and having trouble.see the last math class I took was intro algebra 6 years ago.i have never taken intermediate algebra.i just proceeded to college algebra with a waiver.i think I just made the worst decision of my life.its hard to do homework if I don't even understand some math concepts that I was supposed to learn in intermediate algebra.i informed my professor this.he just told me I need to get a tutor but a tutor can't just teach me the whole intermediate algebra class together with helping me do this college algebra.i am frustrated because I really want to graduate and I don't know what to do.has anybody here ever passed college algebra (precalculus) without taking intermediate algebra? any advice would be helpful.thank you.
  3. hello.i am finishing Rn to bsn online.i only need to take 1 math class:college algebra(precalculus) before I finish my last 2 nursing classes to graduate.i have only taken intro to algebra 6 yrs ago,never taken intermediate algebra and skipped to college algebra with a waiver.i just made the worst decision of my life.i even have a hard time doing homework since most of the topics I could not understand.i informed my professor that I never took intermediate algebra.he just told me to get a tutor.the tutor cannot teAch me intermediate algebra at the same time help me with this college algebra.i feel so confused and helpless as I am very close to graduation so I do not want to drop the class.has anybody here ever taken college algebra without taking intermediate algebra and managed to pass the class?any advice would be very helpful please.i cannot just give up when I'm almost done.thank you.
  4. belle05

    Finally an RN after 12 years!

    Good morning nurses and student nurses! i posted here before years ago regarding my nursing journey. I promised God that I will post some updates to inspire and help people specially the students who failed, once I become an RN. I started my nursing school journey in 2002 as a nursing student in the BSN program, didn't make it. So I went for an Associate's and didn't make it either. My school nursing advisor at that time told me it is hopeless, that I should just change my major and not go for nursing. When I went home, my friends and even my husband were discouraging me, telling me to just give up nursing school and that I am too dumb for nursing. I cried. But I told myself I'll never give up. I went to this forum and some nurses were not nice, telling me also to just give up, that it is not meant for me to be a nurse. While other nurses were very nice to advise me never to give up. They said "if it is a nurse that I want to be, then it is a nurse that I will soon be". I was inspired by that. So I prayed to God that if it is really his will to make me a nurse, to please give me one final chance in nursing school. So I was accepted in LPN school, I became class Vice President and even graduated Valedictorian with 4.0 GPA. I have been working as an LPN since then for 5 years while continuing to take pre-requisites for LPN to RN school. In 2013, I was accepted in the LPN-RN bridge program at a local community college. I did very well in school and even graduated Cum Laude last year Dec. 2014. I finally took my NCLEX-RN last August 5, 2015. The test was very hard. I was praying to God to please be there for me, my deceased loved ones to help me and even some saints to just please help me while I was taking the exam coz it was very HARD. I prayed that pass or not, to please only give me 75 questions coz I can't stand taking anymore hard questions that are mostly select all that apply and prioritization.Only 50% of what I studied from my Saunders reviewer were on the exam, the others I have to just make an educated guess because I never saw them on my reviewer. Finally, after 75 questions, the computer screen went blank. I was shocked. I thought I failed because the questions were so hard. I even told my family not to expect too much because I thought I failed. I did the Pearsonvue trick 1 hour after and after 24 hours, and I still got the good pop-up. I felt relieved. Finally at 9 AM today, Aug. 7, 2015 after 12 years, I got my Quick results and it said PASS. I am finally an RN (Registered Nurse). I am so happy. I finally got the fruit of my years of labor because I never quit or gave up in my dream to be a nurse. Thank God and thanks to those people and very nice nurses here who were very nice to inspire me never to stop in reaching my goals. Because of my faith in God, hardwork, perseverance, family and some nurses here, I am finally an RN. So it is my turn now to advice people,specially the student nurses, never ever to give up on your dreams. Even if it takes a very long road, you will still get there in the end.Never ever listen to negative people who try to discourage you or tell you to just give up. If it is a nurse that you want to be, then it really is a nurse that you will be. I am a living testimony of that. Once again, thank you everybody and goodluck in your nursing journey.
  5. belle05

    Finally an RN after 12 years!

    Good morning nurses and student nurses! i posted here before years ago regarding my nursing journey. I promised God that I will post some updates to inspire and help people specially the students who failed, once I become an RN. I started my nursing school journey in 2002 as a nursing student in the BSN program, didn't make it. So I went for an Associate's and didn't make it either. My school nursing advisor at that time told me it is hopeless, that I should just change my major and not go for nursing. When I went home, my friends and even my husband were discouraging me, telling me to just give up nursing school and that I am too dumb for nursing. I cried. But I told myself I'll never give up. I went to this forum and some nurses were not nice, telling me also to just give up, that it is not meant for me to be a nurse. While other nurses were very nice to advise me never to give up. They said "if it is a nurse that I want to be, then it is a nurse that I will soon be". I was inspired by that. So I prayed to God that if it is really his will to make me a nurse, to please give me one final chance in nursing school. So I was accepted in LPN school, I became class Vice President and even graduated Valedictorian with 4.0 GPA. I have been working as an LPN since then for 5 years while continuing to take pre-requisites for LPN to RN school. In 2013, I was accepted in the LPN-RN bridge program at a local community college. I did very well in school and even graduated Cum Laude last year Dec. 2014. I finally took my NCLEX-RN last August 5, 2015. The test was very hard. I was praying to God to please be there for me, my deceased loved ones to help me and even some saints to just please help me while I was taking the exam coz it was very HARD. I prayed that pass or not, to please only give me 75 questions coz I can't stand taking anymore hard questions that are mostly select all that apply and prioritization.Only 50% of what I studied from my Saunders reviewer were on the exam, the others I have to just make an educated guess because I never saw them on my reviewer. Finally, after 75 questions, the computer screen went blank. I was shocked. I thought I failed because the questions were so hard. I even told my family not to expect too much because I thought I failed. I did the Pearsonvue trick 1 hour after and after 24 hours, and I still got the good pop-up. I felt relieved. Finally at 9 AM today, Aug. 7, 2015 after 12 years, I got my Quick results and it said PASS. I am finally an RN (Registered Nurse). I am so happy. I finally got the fruit of my years of labor because I never quit or gave up in my dream to be a nurse. Thank God and thanks to those people and very nice nurses here who were very nice to inspire me never to stop in reaching my goals. Because of my faith in God, hardwork, perseverance, family and some nurses here, I am finally an RN. So it is my turn now to advice people,specially the student nurses, never ever to give up on your dreams. Even if it takes a very long road, you will still get there in the end.Never ever listen to negative people who try to discourage you or tell you to just give up. If it is a nurse that you want to be, then it REALLY is a nurse that you will be. I am a living testimony of that. Once again, thank you everybody and goodluck in your nursing journey.
  6. hello everyone.I just want to ask all those who took the NCLEX PN exam: 1)) How do I get my nursing license? Does the State Board just mail it to me? Let's say I look on the Pearsonvue Quick Results,found out I passed, and I see my license number. Can I just give my employer my license number and then work as an LPN without having to wait for my actual license by mail? 2) How long does it take to get my actual license after passing the NCLEX PN exam? How does the licensing process work? Thanks
  7. hi.i am ashamed to tell my nursing school misadventures but right now,i just need advice really bad.i am very depressed and confused right now.i first started nursing at a bsn school but failed after taking fundamentals.so i transferred to an associate's rn school,got in.When i was almost in my last semester,i failed 2x and got dismissed from the program.i was very depressed.i let my whole family down,even my grandparents from overseas were even supposed to come to my graduation this year .I am either laughed at by people or yelled at by parents.Instead of encouraging me not to give up,my husband blames me everyday saying im too dumb i failed(it hurts me and makes me cry)Believe it or not,i have been fighting to graduate nursing school for the 7th year now.Nursing is really what my heart wants.I want to be a nurse so I decided I will take one step back from being an RN,which is being an LPN.If being an RN is too overwhelming for me,maybe I can handle less duties being an LPN.When I feel comfortable,then I plan to do an LPN to RN. Right now,I am starting LPN school,this is my 3rd and last try in nursing school(hopefully I will make it with God's help). 1) Has anybody ever failed RN school and successfully became an LPN later? 2) Also,with my situation being out of RN school and going LPN school,am I still eligible to work as a nurse tech?I already completed Med Surg from RN school.I am also still going to attend a nursing school even if it is just LPN school.I really need a job to earn money for my family.Without it,we will up in the streets because my husband is low income also.I cannot work as CNA because my LPN school is already gonna be 5 days/week and if I work on saturday as aide,that would be too much already for my body to handle.Im not even sure if I will pass LPN school if I work because that would leave me with only 1 day left( Sunday) to study.If it wasn't for my family's financial needs during this tough economy,I would have given up because I am already tired of failing.I want to stand up from this failure but everytime I try to motivate myself to never give up,people always try to bring me down.Im either laughed at by friends or yelled at by family.I dont want to quit nursing.I am a very nice person and I really care about my patiets.Can somebody please give me an advice what to do?
  8. OMG! I am a new lpn graduate.I got hired last week for the midnight shift (I preferred afternoons but no opening yet for that shift).I just had my first 3 days of orientation and it was so hard.FYI, in our unit,we only have 1 nurse for the midnight shift and 57 patients(the manager already asked me if I'm ok being on my own with 50+ patients). I just had my first 2 days of my 1 month of orientation and I feel very overwhelmed with everything. My first 2 days I had to learn skills.it was ok until I got to learning to do the paperwork.I got confused with learning how to do nursing audits,med reconciliation,charting doctor's orders.None of my nurse orientors had enough time to teach me those with 50+ patients. Worse of all,on my 3rd day,I had 1 seasoned nurse train me.She already knew I just graduated but still she just told me since I already got my license,I can pass meds on my own,made me do the narcotic count even if I NEVER knew how to count the narcotics and do the treatments.No wonder there's the saying nurses eat their young.She did not even tell me where the meds are in the med cart,so I had to try to manually find those meds.She just threw me cluluess on the floor.As a result,I was left still passing meds when my shift ended at 7:30.I apologized to the oncoming day nurse that it took me time because it's only my 3rd day being a nurse and my nurse orientor threw me on the floor without teaching me how to do anything.Then the oncoming nurse even had the nerve to say I better hurry up next time, knowing I'm a new graduate. I feel so stupid and incompetent and very slow.But what can I do? It was my first time passing meds on my own.Then my orientor later said she threw me to the wolves in purpose so I will know how hard it is on my unit and she even said "I hope you won't leave this job". IS that even legal to make a new graduate nurse orientee pass meds on her own and even count narcs without knowing how to do them?? I thought orientation was supposed to be a time to learn and not to be thrown on the floor until I get done with orientation.It was only my 3rd day.Its either this nurse is too lazy to teach me or she wants to put my hard-earned license at risk.I shouldnt be thrown on the floor to pass meds on my own until I'm done with orientation right? I dont wanna lose my job because it really pays me good.I spent 8 years of my life trying to get this license.But OMG! How can they expect a new graduate be on her own with 57 patients.I dont feel it is safe.What if I have questions or if I have an emergency and I dont have any other nurse to help me? I prefer the afternoon shift coz at least they have 2 nurses.So I can ask another nurse if I dont know how to do something.But there's no opening.I wanna report this to my manager so bad,how I really feel unsafe if I'm left on my own and that my nurse orientors aren't teaching me properly,but I dont wanna be unemployed again.Should I insist on just going to the afternoon shift and if the manager still says there's no opening,just find another job?But at this economy,it is very hard to find another job.I wish all seasoned nurses could just remember and never forget that they were once new graduates too who didnt know much so they know how scared and intimated we,new nurse graduates, feel.I'm very confused now.Should I keep this job risking my license?Do you think my manager might fire me if I really tell her how I feel about my orientation?or should I leave this job if there's no open afternoon shift?Any advice from all nurses I would really appreciate.Thanks
  9. I PASSED my nclex-pn!!! im so happy.out of the 1030 pages to study, I still had 150 pages left of the saunders book and I still managed to pass.All of the questions on the NCLEX I was familiar with because the Saunders book covered all those topics.There was no NCLEX question that I wasnt familiar with.So to all those who are taking their NCLEX, Saunders book is the best.I have some nurse friends who tried other reviewers and didnt pass but all those who reviewed Saunders all passed.I kept praying to God even as I take the test.I was on question # 84,said my last prayer for God to help me pass,and after question 85,my computer suddenly shut off.I also did the Pearsonvue trick and I didnt go to the credit card page,it said my results not available,so I was more confident that I passed.The Pearsonvue trick worked for me then.So to all future NCLEX test takers,just have faith in God,do your best,study Saunders, and believe in yourself.Go,fight,win!
  10. hello.i am taking the nclex pn this friday.i am so scared that my hands feel cold while i am typing.i have been studying the saunders book with the cd for the past month.out of the 1,030 pages of the saunders reviewer,i only got through 500 pages.i have 500 pages left to study and 5 days left. i dont want to cram too much,studying 100 pages per day and not retain anything.please,to all those who passed and studied the nclex pn and specially used the saunders reviewer, how did you finish that humongous book?did you really read all of the book page by page or was the saunders CD enough to pass ??I only have 5 days left and I have Med-Surg and Psychiatric Nursing left to study.I wanna take my NCLEX only 1 time and thats it.Any suggestions which topics I should focus on? Thanks
  11. belle05

    i finally made it!!!

    Hardwork really does pay off.Just want to tell everybody my story.I posted before about being depressed because I failed nursing school before.I started going for the bachelors in nursing,didn't make it.Next,i went to the associate's then didn't make it either.Finally i told myself i will give one last try,to go for the LPN program.Guess what? I finally made it,graduated last week and even became Class Valedictorian.And my road doesn't end here.I am going up the ladder again to RN school. I want to thank all of those nurses who responded to my post before,encouraging me never to give up.That just because I failed nursing sometimes does not mean that I will not be a nurse.That if it is nursing that I really want, then I will someday be a nurse.Thank you so much for helping me believe in myself.The road may not be easy.I had to drive everyday for 1 hour or more to school and to my clinical sites because the school is in another county.But I told myself,I really want this.I was thinking what would I feed my family,what will happen to them if I don't make it?Despite people and even family and friends teasing me that I was a failure and my former nursing instructor telling me to just give it up,to just change major because maybe nursing is not for me,I fought my way through and I proved them wrong! I prayed to God that if nursing is really meant for me, to please help me make it through my one last try in nursing school,in LPN school.If I dont make it,then I will give up nursing.Fortunately,I made it after all those years.Thanks to my LPN school for giving me the chance to pursue my dream.So I advice all the students,specially the ones who might have failed a couple of times,never to give up.Stay motivated and think of all those people who depend on you,specially your family.Make them your motivation,even if the road out there is tough.Do not be discouraged by people who tell you that you might not make it.Don't even listen to them.Just don't forget to pray to God,believe in yourself and do your BEST.If nursing is really what you want,then follow your heart because someday, just like me,you can be a nurse too.
  12. Hardwork really does pay off.Just want to tell everybody my story.I posted before about being depressed because I failed nursing school before.I started going for the bachelors in nursing,didn't make it.Next,i went to the associate's then didn't make it either.Finally i told myself i will give one last try,to go for the LPN program.Guess what? I finally made it,graduated last week and even became Class Valedictorian.And my road doesn't end here.I am going up the ladder again to RN school. I want to thank all of those nurses who responded to my post before,encouraging me never to give up.That just because I failed nursing sometimes does not mean that I will not be a nurse.That if it is nursing that I really want, then I will someday be a nurse.Thank you so much for helping me believe in myself.The road may not be easy.I had to drive everyday for 1 hour or more to school and to my clinical sites because the school is in another county.But I told myself,I really want this.I was thinking what would I feed my family,what will happen to them if I don't make it?Despite people and even family and friends teasing me that I was a failure and my former nursing instructor telling me to just give it up,to just change major because maybe nursing is not for me,I fought my way through and I proved them wrong! I prayed to God that if nursing is really meant for me, to please help me make it through my one last try in nursing school,in LPN school.If I dont make it,then I will give up nursing.Fortunately,I made it after all those years.Thanks to my LPN school for giving me the chance to pursue my dream.So I advice all the students,specially the ones who might have failed a couple of times,never to give up.Stay motivated and think of all those people who depend on you,specially your family.Make them your motivation,even if the road out there is tough.Do not be discouraged by people who tell you that you might not make it.Don't even listen to them.Just don't forget to pray to God,believe in yourself and do your BEST.If nursing is really what you want,then follow your heart because someday, just like me,you can be a nurse too.
  13. hello.i just graduated from an lpn program.I live in the Macomb county area in Michigan.I really need to start working ASAP but I cant take the LPN boards until this October.I am currently reviewing for my LPN boards right now.I remember my instructors said I can work as a Graduate Practical Nurse while waiting to take my boards. Does anybody here know of any graduate LPN jobs in the Detroit area or Macomb County area in Michigan?I have been looking both online and on the newspaper for Graduate PN jobs but cannot find any.IF there are any GPN jobs out there,which facilities hire them? I already worked in 3 hospitals and 1 assisted living before so I know I am well qualified to work as a graduate PN nurse till I take my boards.Unfortunately,my past places of employment do not hire PN nurse graduates.They only hire for graduate RNs.If anybody could pls help me find a graduate PN job would be appreciated.Thank you.
  14. belle05

    any michigan jobs for graduate practical nurses?

    i graduated from corinthian colleges in southfield.do you know of any graduate pn jobs?
  15. I posted before about how do Excelsior clinicals go,and I dont think people understood my question.I already know that there is technically no clinicals,there is just the 2 day testing for the CPNE. What I meant to ask was in order for me to PRACTICE the skills that I will be tested on for the CPNE,where can i find a facility to practice my skills on and most important,where would I find an instructor who would be able to teach me all these nursing skills inlcuding OB,PEds,etc. in Michigan? Does Excelsior provide me a list of instructors and facilities to choose?I live in Michigan. Do I have to pay my instructor and the facility so I could practice those skills and how much?
  16. hi.i just graduated from lpn school here in michigan.i would like to work in a hospital or clinic here in michigan as long as it is NOT in a nursing home.does anybody know of any hospital or clinic that hire lpns in michigan?where is it at and how much do they pay lpns?
  17. hi.i am a newly graduated lpn.i am interested in excelsior's lpn-rn program.how do clinicals work?.i heard i have to find my own instructor for my clinicals. i live here in michigan.do i have to find a different instructor for each class?? one teacher for OB and another for pediatrics? WHERE can i find a clinical instructor here in michigan who can teach me all classes,OB,Peds,MEd Surg and where can i find a clinical site that would let me practice on their patients? Does Excelsior give me a list of instructors and clinical sites to choose from? Do I have to pay my clinical instructor too,separate from my Excelsior fees?IF any Excelsior grad could please enlighten me how Excelsior clinicals work.Thank you.
  18. thanks for all the replies,both good or bad.i respect all of your opinions.i really want to pursue nursing still and if this last try doesnt work out,then i may find some other field.thank you.
  19. hi.i am ashamed to tell my nursing school misadventures but right now,i just need advice really bad.i am very depressed and confused right now.i first started nursing at a bsn school but failed after taking fundamentals.so i transferred to an associate's rn school,got in.When i was almost in my last semester,i failed 2x and got dismissed from the program.i was very depressed.i let my whole family down,even my grandparents from overseas were even supposed to come to my graduation this year .I am either laughed at by people or yelled at by parents.Instead of encouraging me not to give up,my husband blames me everyday saying im too dumb i failed(it hurts me and makes me cry)Believe it or not,i have been fighting to graduate nursing school for the 7th year now.Nursing is really what my heart wants.I want to be a nurse so I decided I will take one step back from being an RN,which is being an LPN.If being an RN is too overwhelming for me,maybe I can handle less duties being an LPN.When I feel comfortable,then I plan to do an LPN to RN. Right now,I am starting LPN school,this is my 3rd and last try in nursing school(hopefully I will make it with God's help). 1) Has anybody ever failed RN school and successfully became an LPN later? 2) Also,with my situation being out of RN school and going LPN school,am I still eligible to work as a nurse tech?I already completed Med Surg from RN school.I am also still going to attend a nursing school even if it is just LPN school.I really need a job to earn money for my family.Without it,we will up in the streets because my husband is low income also.I cannot work as CNA because my LPN school is already gonna be 5 days/week and if I work on saturday as aide,that would be too much already for my body to handle.Im not even sure if I will pass LPN school if I work because that would leave me with only 1 day left( Sunday) to study.If it wasn't for my family's financial needs during this tough economy,I would have given up because I am already tired of failing.I want to stand up from this failure but everytime I try to motivate myself to never give up,people always try to bring me down.Im either laughed at by friends or yelled at by family.I dont want to quit nursing.I am a very nice person and I really care about my patients.Can somebody please give me an advice what to do?I feel so alone now...
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