Laloba

Thank you so much for your encouraging ideas and thoughts. I have four dogs. A St. Bernard, a pit bull, a dob and a chow mix. Alll rescuse dogs. I use to work at a zoo before I came a nurse. HUM.......... maybe.

Since I did not do this from the get go, I will have to start now. This is a great idea. I saw my psy today and he thinks I am ready to return to work for 10 to 20 hours a week. I called my nursing dept. manager who said nothing but I am transfering you to HR. WHO said oh no I just don't think we can accomodate you on that, you were hired as full time. I explained until the doctor feels I am ready for full time and that this is normal procedure. So I called the ethics line and my psy and my counselor and informed them of what the hospital had said. The unit I work on is still using prn and agency staff. This is great advice for in the future. HR has already informed me more than once that I was hired to do charge in L&D and will be denied a transfer for two years. BTW this is a HCA facility, who brags about their ETHICS.

I don't want anyone of you to be scared of this, and I am sure we all of thought of it at least once. And if it werent' for my adult children and dogs I would have already done it. SO I won't, so don't worry. But you know if you tell your psy that you would really just like to go to sleep and not wake up and that you are tired of all of it. He/She would put inpatient in a heart beat. That would drive me nuts, by the time I got out my husband would have lost everything and where would my dogs be? He would be living on the street with the four dogs attached to a shopping cart. I would like to quit, but I can't.

This may sound stupid, but how does one get into case management? I have put in for a transfer out of Labor and Delivery and they won't let me out. They say I was hired as night charge and put me back on probabtion so I am not ilegable for a transfer. You can't win for losing. Don't you have to be on good standing with the hosptial to do case management?

How do you get into another field of nursing when all of your past references are bad? I live in an area where most of the people speak spanish only, so homehealth care is pretty much out. Only spanish I know is related to labor and delivery and babies. My husband has suggested another travel assignment, to somewhere that there is water and mountains. I just don't know. Sad thing is I really miss my labor patients. Yes, as far as meds, you name it they have tried it. Short of inpatient shock. Guess that is next. Thank you for your reply

You are not being sarcastic. I have tried so many different meds, some help for about a month, then boom nada,zip. Back to fetal. but ty for suggestion :)

I was a travel nurse for 14 years, then tried the staff thing. Got fired, went back to traveling got fired from three travel jobs. For calling in sick. The panic and depression have me and won't let go. No matter what the doc gives me. A "friend" called me from one of the hospitals I was a traveler at and begged me to come, said oh you will feel better here you loved it here, as I did. SO, off we go. NOPE, didn't help. Now I am at the Employee Assistance Program seeing a psy and a md and a counselor. Is it helping? Nope. Ran out of sick time, no money. Need dog food. Pulled up all my courage, signed up with a local agency to just do one day at another hospital. NOPE. Couldnt' do it. My question is what do we do when we are so understaffed you know things are missed and you see them and you inform your manager and NOTHING is done. One of my labor patients, when I came on duty was found in HELLP and the day shift had done nothing. NOTHING. She died, as did her infant. You come home and hug a tree and cry. What else can you do? I am so toast on all of it. If I were brave enough I would tell my psy that. Then I would wind up in a padded room. Then who would feed the dogs? I have tried other areas of nursing, it doesn't help. In 28 years I have done CCU, ER, NeoIUC, L&D, postop, preop,PediICU, Peds and Ortho. :stone Any hope out there?