giveashot

Thank you all for your comments. To the question about what I did before nursing - I was a long term seizure technician in a hospital (hooking up and monitoring EEG's for long term monitoring). Yes, I do have days when everything is exactly what I had hoped for - days I do get to teach/counsel, the thank yous and even the hugs. It just seems that some weeks are eaten up by disgruntled pts, too many meds to pass, and blood to hang, and too little time. That's when I literally feel my BP rising, begin to feel overwhelmed...still, I get it all done and I'm just grateful the shift is over. That's when I really wonder if it was worth it. Believe me, the days that are great, I love being a nurse...the days when I just don't know how I'm going to get through another minute, I feel used up. I look around me on these very very busy days, and it seems that everyone else is moving at the same pace as usual, dosen't appear to be stressed, and then I question myself.

I am 45, recently graduated from nursing school and am working a medical floor. Some days, I feel like nothing more than a legal drug pusher. I thought I'd actually be able to nurse my patients, meet their many needs, and learn. I don't know if I'm learning anything but prioritizing my time to get it all done for 6 patient's. Is this all there is to nursing? Am I going to learn anything?