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can anyone relate??????? -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I have applied again and got into an LPN program, the first time in 2005, I had to forfeit my seat right before school began due to family issues. That class is now graduating , and I managed to get acccepted again for the class of '08.my first day is the 23rd. I should be off the hook with excitement and happiness, but .. why I am experiencing soo much anxiety???and second guessing is it really normal?? I feel like I "don't know what i'm getting myself into"... I read alot of posts here on allnurses and can tell you I shouldn't , I do not have any medical related experience, but read how "stressful" and how LPN's are being phased out, I do know my state does not employ them in hospitals any longer, & I have at this moment NO interest whatsoever in ltc, or nursing homes. I am interested in Physician office jobs, and want to know if going to school to become an LPN with such limited experience and/ desires makes me as lousy of a nursing candidate as I feel. and has any one else EVER felt this way prior to school , and found interest in things they previously didn't?? thanks ladies (and men)

I have applied again and got into an LPN program, the first time in 2005, I had to forfeit my seat right before school began due to family issues. That class is now graduating , and I managed to get acccepted again for the class of '08.my first day is the 23rd. I should be off the hook with excitement and happiness, but .. why I am experiencing soo much anxiety???and second guessing is it really normal?? I feel like I "don't know what i'm getting myself into"... I read alot of posts here on allnurses and can tell you I shouldn't , I do not have any medical related experience, but read how "stressful" and how LPN's are being phased out, I do know my state does not employ them in hospitals any longer, & I have at this moment NO interest whatsoever in ltc, or nursing homes. I am interested in Physician office jobs, and want to know if going to school to become an LPN with such limited experience and/ desires makes me as lousy of a nursing candidate as I feel. and has any one else EVER felt this way prior to school , and found interest in things they previously didn't?? thanks ladies (and men)

Is it normal to get cold feet? I am starting school on the 23rd and am starting to second guess myself (I do this alot) anyway I have been accepted into the LPN program and keep having thoughts that make me scared. anyone else ??? or is this just me

Hi everyone, I'm Monica 38 yr. old mom to 4 boys 18, 14, 7 & 3. My orientation is Aug 30, class begins the next day. Nervous doesn't explain how I feel. I still have books, scrubs shoes & a nurse pack to buy. taking the cpr test tomorrow night. glad to be here,but looking around saying am I really here???? will be in touch alot i'm sure. best wishes to all !!

I was accepted to an LPN program, via the waiting list, have been planning on getting into nursing for the past several years,but didnt try to get in until recently I am a Mom of 4 boys.. ages 18 down to 3 EVERYTHING about going has seemed to be "meant to be", it all has been falling into place (strangely at times), more confirmation of it being "meant to be" Orientation is Aug. 30th.. Now I am starting to panic, I keep hearing/ reading that LPN's are being phased out, limited on where they can work.....etc My heart wants to be in L/D or nursery etc. I have had many experiences in life as a patient or the Mom of a patient, so I really feel those experiences could be beneficial in relating and caring for a patient. But now am thinking that I am not going to be able to achieve that being an LPN. Everywhere I look here the push seems to be RN. I don't know if I should ditch my plan and begin the journey of RN ( many pre-pre req's..LOL) I am afraid of losing my chance at LPN... but... I AM SOOOOO CONFUSED I know you cant tell me what to do, but any rational viewpoint is appreciated. I just sux to be feeling so uncertain so close to the start of school. thanks for reading, Monica (future psych patient)

Thankyou for reading this....... I will try to keep this brief (it will be difficult) On April 28th I lost my Mother. She was 67 yrs. old, she had battled ( and kept at bay) non hodgkins lymphoma for the better part of 20 yrs.(amazing) She had Congestive Heart Failure, and only one "functioning" kidney, over the years of her battle she has had numerous rounds of tests, treatments, interventions , ie: abdominal parenthesis (weekly) for months. etc. (too mauch to list) her heart problem inevitably created kidney problems, but she was monitered closely. she went to a wonderful University hospital, even though it was an hours drive. shes been doing good for some time going for weekly procrit shots. In March she went for her weekly procrit shot, she had been having diahrrea, and was found to be dehydrated with very low blood pressure. They admitted her, stopped all her meds (heart blood pressure etc.) Began hydrated her slowly, and she swelled. they discovered her kidney was not functioning well, and ultimately deemed it as failure. also, they found she had a blood infection, (staph i think) treatment included... jugular catheter placement for immediate dialysis and vanco for the infection. she was passing blood through her rectum so they did an endo to see why, and could only suggest perhaps it was gastroenteritis, irritation. the day after the endo my mom appeared to have a mild stroke, but thankfully, no damage or signs of it the next day. finally after 2 weeks of hospitalization they removed her porta cath from former chemo treatments because they felt that was causing the infection. It cleared and she was released, but could not have dialysis at the university because she lived too far, they would not allow her to travel that distance. (?) so... she had to go locally (yuk) they squeezed her in for her thrice weekly dialysis. she did this for 2 weeks on wednesday of week 3, her 8th time to this unit she went in telling them she was freezing and not feeling well they did cultures, dialysis and sent her home. I went over her house and stayed with her till 1 a.m, she was shivering cause she was cold,sleepy and had a mild fever (100), Dad had the flu shortly before she came home so he and I assumed on top of all else poor Mom was getting it. she was cold and weak, same symptoms he had. She shivered and moaned and was unres[ponsive ( I thought cause she was feeling ill) in the chair and finally went to sleep , so I came home at 1. My dad called me at 8 am to tell me she was unresponsive, I told him thats how she was during the night, again when my Mom is sick she closes her eyes and doesn't want to be bothered, so .... this is what I assumed was happening. I told him as soon as the boys get on the school bus I will be there. 8:15 he called back to say , no need to hurry. My Mom passed away . OMG fast forward to now, the whirlwind is slowing and I am at total peace with my Mom not suffering anymore. but........ after ALL she has been through I cannot believe what she died from I thought her heart failed nope her death certificate, which I just read for the first time says her cause of death was Septicemia & Uremia I am not a Nurse (yet...aug 30th is my orientation) but help me to understand how if she was having dialysis, how could she have uremia? again I am at peace I just am confused.... and as far as septicemia..... I just am confused. Thabks if you have read all this and any response is welcome. take care, Monica soulsearchin' View Public Profile Send a private message to soulsearchin' Find More Posts by soulsearchin' Add soulsearchin' to Your Buddy List

Thankyou for reading this....... I will try to keep this brief (it will be difficult) On April 28th I lost my Mother. She was 67 yrs. old, she had battled ( and kept at bay) non hodgkins lymphoma for the better part of 20 yrs.(amazing) She had Congestive Heart Failure, and only one "functioning" kidney, over the years of her battle she has had numerous rounds of tests, treatments, interventions , ie: abdominal parenthesis (weekly) for months. etc. (too mauch to list) her heart problem inevitably created kidney problems, but she was monitered closely. she went to a wonderful University hospital, even though it was an hours drive. shes been doing good for some time going for weekly procrit shots. In March she went for her weekly procrit shot, she had been having diahrrea, and was found to be dehydrated with very low blood pressure. They admitted her, stopped all her meds (heart blood pressure etc.) Began hydrated her slowly, and she swelled. they discovered her kidney was not functioning well, and ultimately deemed it as failure. also, they found she had a blood infection, (staph i think) treatment included... jugular catheter placement for immediate dialysis and vanco for the infection. she was passing blood through her rectum so they did an endo to see why, and could only suggest perhaps it was gastroenteritis, irritation. the day after the endo my mom appeared to have a mild stroke, but thankfully, no damage or signs of it the next day. finally after 2 weeks of hospitalization they removed her porta cath from former chemo treatments because they felt that was causing the infection. It cleared and she was released, but could not have dialysis at the university because she lived too far, they would not allow her to travel that distance. (?) so... she had to go locally (yuk) they squeezed her in for her thrice weekly dialysis. she did this for 2 weeks on wednesday of week 3, her 8th time to this unit she went in telling them she was freezing and not feeling well they did cultures, dialysis and sent her home. I went over her house and stayed with her till 1 a.m, she was shivering cause she was cold,sleepy and had a mild fever (100), Dad had the flu shortly before she came home so he and I assumed on top of all else poor Mom was getting it. she was cold and weak, same symptoms he had. She shivered and moaned and was unres[ponsive ( I thought cause she was feeling ill) in the chair and finally went to sleep , so I came home at 1. My dad called me at 8 am to tell me she was unresponsive, I told him thats how she was during the night, again when my Mom is sick she closes her eyes and doesn't want to be bothered, so .... this is what I assumed was happening. I told him as soon as the boys get on the school bus I will be there. 8:15 he called back to say , no need to hurry. My Mom passed away . OMG fast forward to now, the whirlwind is slowing and I am at total peace with my Mom not suffering anymore. but........ after ALL she has been through I cannot believe what she died from I thought her heart failed nope her death certificate, which I just read for the first time says her cause of death was Septicemia & Uremia I am not a Nurse (yet...aug 30th is my orientation) but help me to understand how if she was having dialysis, how could she have uremia? again I am at peace I just am confused.... and as far as septicemia..... I just am confused. Thabks if you have read all this and any response is welcome. take care, Monica

Hi to those who remember, i was on the waiting list, and rec'd the phone call. I am in !!!!!!!!!!!!!! now, what do I do with my kids?? lol school begins at 7:45, school bus comes at 8:00 I have to leave at 7:00 and 3 year old didn't get into pre school. I better get some plans in order. First day of school is Aug. 30th. anyone apply for a pell grant?? is it hard to get?? Thanks in advance, Monica

I have been perusing this board since '03, and every time I saw your picture you remins me of this nicu nurse my baby had in the hospital, he was born in '00 with an undetected chd that ultimately took his 12 day old life. Margaret I believe was her name, "angel" to me, she thought nothing of unhooking all the lines from him so that I could hold him. I will forever be in debt to her. You look alot like her, so whenever I see your posts I have good memories. so thankyou . Monica

Hello, I rec'd a letter regarding the LPN program at a tech school where i had tested, I missed the interview appt. beacuse my Mom passed away : ( I called and explained to the interviewer and she squeezed me in last minute. The letter said that the 34 applicants they had selected had scored higher than me so I am on the "waiting list". if an opening becomes avail. they will contact me. well, I was too curious to know what realistically the odds are someone would opt to not go, and I called the dept. head and asked that very question, she said that the odds are good, and without me repeating my name she stated that I am very near the top of the list. The applicants who earned the seats have until June 1 to respond or they lose the chance and the wait list is tapped into. what do you think?? also.. for those of you with pre school/ toddler age kiddies, what are your plans for them while you attend school? this program is full time days. I have a 3 1/2 yr old who did not get chosen for our prechool program (its lottery based) funny...... we both got letters saying we were on waiting lists!!! too funny thanks in advace for any replies, Monica

Hello, I just returned from "the" interview, although this is through a vo- tech program I can tell you the process, I had to do a "spontaneous" essay which consisted of 2 prompts, 1) what made you choose to become a nurse, include three factors 2) What do you expect to learn from the program. Then came the actual interview questions, basically 4 questions 1) why do you want to be a nurse 2) what have you done to prepare for the program 3) what is your support system like 4) what would your best friend say about you My interview went well, but I know that I will be put in the "pool" because my test score wasn't that high, and with only 30 seats open , I prolly wont get in. But I can still keep my fingers crossed (anythings possible) Good luck on your interview.

Thankyou for responding. I can read THIS okay because I have email notification on so I have the link sent to me. I go to the jump to box click on the forum I am into, but the page doesn't load with any posts or threads. so there isn't anything to click on to read or post a reply to. oh well. thanks again.

thanks for the advice,but... that board claims to not have had any posts in the past 365 days..

the page just loads the same, with the header & moderator names, no posts or threads, and I KNOW that these forums have posts & threads in them. i'm stumped. I've emailed allnurses but have heard nothing yet. I have to think of a subject and then search, or I can read the new posts, but cannot view the entire forums previous posts. Monica

Could someone tell me how I can read all posts and threads?? when I click on a forum header all that comes up is the forum name and moderators, i'm new to this and cannot figure it out. I've tried tweaking setting in the options but to no avail. Thanks in advance, Monica