mitakashi

Ok... Im going to say this one last time... I put Venting in the title because I needed to VENT, wow, there's a shocker of a concept. I needed to get some stuff off my chest. And once I get back to Hilo I can find a job but I am currently in Missouri and I just got here and there are NO jobs on campus and NO jobs available around campus so until i get back to Hilo in may i wont have a job. Now I'll say this again for the 2nd or 3rd time, the cost of me attending college in Hilo is less then if i had stayed in Massachusetts. Amherst College in state tuition in mass is $37,622 annually. Bay state college in state is $19,350 and $11,130 room and board. Boston College is $37,950 in state tuition with $11,610 room and board. And all these prices are for the general cost, not the nursing program costs and thats without the costs of books and supplies. For me to go to hilo its $12,880 out of state tuition and $7,014 housing. Hey look, its cheaper then 90% of the colleges in Mass as I said before. And once again... the reason I went on exchange to different parts of the country is because IT COST LESS MONEY THEN STAYING IN HILO. Because through this program I get to pay these schools in state tuition. So I if i only have 23,000 in loans and i should have about 40,000 right now that obviously I'm not wasting my money on trivial things. Hey look, the cost of my 2 years or college is about the price of ! year in Mass... And for the 3rd time now, if i stop going to college full time then my loans will kick in and I will have to pay them off, so on top of paying that off I have to pay for housing, and food, and any other college classes, so unless I have a job makin at least $15-$20 a hour its not going to work. So please, unless there is something you can do to actually help like if you know of some scholarships or something, then let me VENT... and if you don't want to listen to the "pity party" then don't click on a thread that says Venting at the top. I wanted to get this off my chest so i could feel better, not get more aggravated. At the very least you can write about some hard times that you went through and how you got through them instead of telling me what i should or should not do. I've traveled across the country since I was 18 all alone with no support system monetarily or mentally and I'm still afloat so i think I'm doing pretty good for myself. But if I have to get something off my chest then let me.

If you feel like you want to run away you should. Well not like away away, but like go for a jog around the block and just keep circling till you feel your ready to stop running. I mean you know your body better then anyone else and if its telling you to run then run, bet you would feel alot better after and alot less stressed out. Just make sure that if you dont jog around the block and instead just keep going that you dont go too far or you wont have the strength to make it back x.x... and from experience its not a fun thing having to go all the way back.

I have like 23,000 in student loans and still have 3 years of college left and i cant find any scholarships because i dont qualify for any of the ones i can find

I was doing it to vent... hence why i put venting up top and i appologized for the gramar "excuse my gramar and stuff but im to frustrated to worry about it. /I]" The reason im not in mass is because it was cheaper for me to go to a university in hawaii then it was for me to go to a college in massachusetts. and unless its a state school in mass then the instate tuition is same as out of state. trust me, i looked into it. i also mentioned that me and my family arnt too friendly with eachother right now. and the reason I'm traveling is becaus thru the national student exchange program i get to pay these schools in state tuition which was less then it would have cost me for hawaii's out of state tuition which is still less then mass's in state tuition. And I want a part time job but there are none available on campus and there are none around campus that i can get to. pretty sure i explained allll of this in my post. i can go in and quote it if you want? And if i do community college its going to be 5 years before i get my bachelors and im already 2 years invested in college and if i go back to hilo it will only be 3 more years.... not to mention if i do part time schooling that all my loans will kick in because i have to be a full time student or i have to pay off the loans and once again i put VENTING in the title, meaning this is stuff i need to get off my chest....so unless theres anything you can do to help please dont go making assumptions that i havnt thought of every possible option, i posted to get this off my chest and maybe to get well thought out advice or help getting a scholarship.

Allright... so i'm finishing up my 2nd year in college, and I'm changing my major to nursing. Im already 25,000 in debt and I have at least 3 years of college left. one next year to finish requirements and 2 years in the nursing program to get my degree.. I went on exchange this year so i went to alaska for a semeter and now im in missouri and in may i'm going back to hawaii. excuse my gramar and stuff but im to frustrated to worry about it. so.. i owe this school $469 still and have $40 to my name... there are no jobs available on campus and i cant get a job off campus because no car... so i have no source of income at all and now i gotta spring for a $600 plane ticket back to hawaii where hopefully i can go to summer school and they have a room available for me or im going to be living on the streets because my family lives back in massachusetts. i can try and get a appartment there but all my moneys gone now cuz this freaking schools financial aid didnt cover all my costs like the last school did... I've been trying to find scholarships but for some **** reason i dont qualify for any... and i cant get pell grant or anything because my family makes too much money... where all this money is thought i dont know cuz i dont see it not to mention i have a sister that went to college the same year i did so skjvghjdlfskv..... cant get a nursing scholarship because im not in a nursing program yet... im "pre-nursing"..my grades arnt bad but there not extrordinary, think i have a 2.8 gpa because i was a japanese major and the grades in that class the last year and a half draged my gpa way down then what i think it should be....... and i've been trying to find a scholarship becasue im gay and guess what... dont qualify for any of them because im not in a gay family, my parents dont hate me because im gay, and im not out there in the gay community doin community service n stuff because im afraid of coming out that i'm gay because the medias gotten it into my head that this country hates gays and discriminates against them... oh wait thats true... btu i wouldnt know becaus ei keep to myself which makes it so i dont qualify for 90% of the scholarships out there.... and i dont have a strong relationship with my family so i have absolutly no support system in my life except for 1 friend back in hawaii that i feel close to but dun think she feels close to me. on top of all this i just broke my only **** pair of headphones i had that i saved up to get for like 2 months even thought they were only $40... and to top it off everytime i have to go to the bathroom i have to go someplace else on campus because the roomates i share the suit with are ****ing disqustign. when i first moved int the tiolet seat was broke so i got a new one and 3 days after they started coming back to the dorms it was covered in ****, the showers never been cleaned, the sinks dont get rinsed out after they use them along with the counter, and the floor in their looks like it hasnt been moped in 3 years... i cant even afford to get a haircut. and i would cry and feel sorry for myself but i dont have the time because i have a microbiology test tuesday and i dont understand about 90% of it. and i would kill to have just one friend on campus but i honestly feel that keeping to myself is the best thing right now because i have a habit of geting taken advantage of because i trust people too easy. every relationship i've ever been in has ended the second sex came about, didnt matter how long i waited either, could have been 3 months into relationship then had sex then next day there doen with me and relationships over. and theres not even any penut butter so i can make a pbnj sandwich to top it all off becaus eim sick a ramen cuz its the only thing i've eaten inthe last month because its the only thing i could afford n thought i would spring for pbnj but guess what.......... no freakin penut butter being sold.... :angryfire

Hey, I'm going into a nusing program and I'm a gay male and I've had some concerns reading some of these posts. I know I want this as a career and I'm not going to look into a new profession but theres still lingering issues. I know males have to cover their @ss's when dealing with female patients because they are male. And because I'm gay I can only imagine I have to cover my ass with dealing with male patients too. But I mean I cant exactly have someone tailing me all day long at the hospital and I cant very well strap a camera to my head for evidence I did nothing wrong. It's really concerning me though, I mean im not really sure what to do and i want to stay in this field. I guess I'm just getting over worried but some of these posts are kind of O_O..... for lack of better words. Anyone have any advice or maybe some storys they could tell to help me feel better or get rid of some of this concern?