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Thanks guys!.. I kind of feel better now. Its not so much my dads forcing me anymore, at least. But Like you guys have been saying my he quit forcing those subjects on me because he knows I don't have the mentality yet... he says that maybe one day when I grow up and have that maturity level its gunna happen someday just not today..

Im new so I don't know if im in the right Forums... but here goes :uhoh21: Im in grade 13 (staying a year back in highschool)... and all of grade 9,10,11,12 I took a mix of university/ college level sciences (bio, chem, phy) and math. I never really did good in them, I failed allot of them but then eventually passed at summer school. Thing was I was forced to take those courses by my dad who's a doctor. So in my 13th year I didn't bother to retake them... and went on to other courses (family studies, history.. arts etc.) I think its the motivation that kept my from doing good in those courses.. and the lack of support I got from my own father. (Hes just absent minded/ hard headed:banghead:) Anyways.. I STILL don't know where I want to go with my life. Ive thought about teaching, social work, early childhood.. but in reality i find that i have a hard time helping myself.. so i just feel like im in no position to help others mentally... and just thinking about it i find that i have a short interest in thoes types of careers... (its like one day i want to be a social worker.. then the next day a teacher.. then the next day a psychologist) My side of the family are all health care related or education related.. (doctor or teacher) and I really have a passion to become a nurse.. to work in a hospital sorta like "follow in the footsteps of my father" not quite but you get what im saying? My brothers in his 3rd year doing well.. hes getting his BSC.. after that he might go to med school (i doubt it) or pharmacy school (thats what he wants)... And here I am with a passion of become a nurse but my grades aren't that high in sciences.. and I ABSOLUTELY HATE MATH.. I don't know if its because I can't simply do it or im lacking motivation or im just plain, straight out lazy... I really don't want to stay another year back in highschool to retake bio chem and math... espically at home i find that i lack motivation and support so i want to get out of my home asap... so i was thinking i could take Pre-health science course in college and try to get in for admission to a 4 year nursing program. It's whats next that scares me...:uhoh21: some of the courses in the 4 year nursing programme.. like microbio.. pharmacology.. those are the courses my brothers taking in university towards his BSN.. and he has struggles thought studying some of those courses but has gotten high 60's high 70's low 80's in them.. thing is me and my brother arnt at the same level or smartness.. hes wayyy smarter then me and i guess im just a slow learner... :zzzzzI don't know if im going to be able to get through the 4 year programe but its sorta my passion to become a nurse.. My question is should i move on to another career or should i attempt it? seeing how im already 2 years behind in grade school... ( i failed grade 2 when we moved to ontario becasue i missed alot of school and i am a slow learner and im staying a year back in highschool).. I feel that i dont have enough passion/ motivation to get thought the nursing programe so should i wait till i feel like im ready 100% and attempt another career in the meantime or should i go head on and try it? ugh.